Confuse....

I am right now in a dilemma state....
Why do i say so???
Have u ever experienced that something u know that u should not do it but u still do it?
I believe that everyone has experienced it before...
Human are dilemma....
Things that u know u should not but yet u do....
This is human....
Human are weak and imperfect....
There is never someone who can say that
Hei i did not make any mistakes in my life....
This is impossible.....
Human are struggling....
I am struggling.....

To me,
I am in confusing state....
Things that should not but i do it...
Things that should do yet i did not do so....
Dilemma....
Confuse....
Don know how to differentiate between right and wrong....
Haiz....

I hate this state of my life.....
What is the right way?
I don know...
Wat should i do?
I don know...
Is that really correct?
I don know....
Is that really wrong???
I don know...
Wat do i know?
I don know anything....
This has been haunted me for few days le....
Not sure of where to get the answer....
I am weak...
And fragile....
The world is never a place that suits me....
Haha....
Super duper emo, right???

I think i will be just fine....
Just need time to sort it out...
To find the answer....
Haha....
I am cheerful in people's eye...
There is nothing that can make me down...
But actually i am quite a emo person....
Ok...
Emo post will stop here....
No more emoing...

I will continue to find the answer....
Hope to find it soon....
Haha....
GOD IS THE STRENGTH OF MY HEART.....
Kampate, starry....
U can one.....
:)

Starting of a new sem......

First week have pass....
Now come into the second week....
People are dilema....
I am one....
How do i say so.....
Cos i actually saying  that i don want to bring up my car......
But now i want....
Why????
 Explain later......

So, how i come back.....
My dad fetch....
He is a great dad...
He did something that most dad won do...
He fetch me up from JB.....
Which is seven hours journey.....
Then we have dinner with my JB friends that study here.....
And time together.....

Monday morning....
I actually able to wake up for going to pasak.....
To buy vegetable.....
Then first time miss my class on the first day....
People normally won miss it.......
Then have dinner with friends.....
This end my first day.....

Most of the days are like that...
Just realize i actually have three days that i have to study until 8pm....
Is kinda late....
But most of the time,
My friday is free....
FREE.....
Haha.......

On thursday i have a bbq dinner with my uni friends.....
To celebrate one of my friend's birthday...
As usual, the cake is not for us to eat....
But to play with....
Running on the street just to throw the cake at each other.......
After wasting the cake,
we go back home.....
Is fun......
Everyone complaining.....


On friday, bbq again...
This is cos of the opening house for the new hostel....
is to introduce the place to ppl.....
so about 60 ppl attend....
is more than wat i expected.....
But then my friend prepare too much of chicken wings....
So i have been eating it for 3 days....
Until sunday also cannot finish....
But have a great time there.....
Going to be so fat......

The new church is started on sunday.....
A lot of ppl came....
Mostly are our own friends la....
There is a new friend in the service....
We took a grp photo....
And after that, we play monopoly and cards until midnight....
Only go back home and rest.....

Today morning,
Having a severe headache....
First time waking up in the middle of my sleep....
And later 12pm i got class....
So a bit worry for it....
Headache make me sick and weak...
planing not to go to class le...
But still go...
don know why....
Since i come here,
Even though i am sick....
I will still go to class....
But when my dad call me,
he is not very happy with the way i speak....
i explain to him la....
cos during the first call....
i did not say that i am sick.....
don want to make him worry.....
but after my explanation, he is ok with it....
he just want to encourage me....
i am a bit paiseh la....
cos since young,
parents are quite ok with my results...
now,
my parents are worry.....
too lazy ady....
have to be more hardworking.....

this sem's subject....
interesting and hard.....
super hard.....
a lot of things to remember....
the books are super expensive lo......
but is nice to study......

Kampate starry.....
Have to start study now......
jia you....
and smile......