Stop....

Hai....
I will be stop using blog for three weeks starting tomorrow which is 1 september....
Cos i am facing my trial....
So don miss me...
I will study hard for trial...
So when i finish it,
I will be blogging again....
Kampate...

Growing up........

I still wondering when can i grow up....
But i realise i still need time to learn how to....

Cos when i am scared and don know wat to do,
When i kena scolded,
When i fell guily,
The only thing i can do is cry....

Although my family keep on telling me don cry,
But tears just came down like that...

I really cannot control....
I want to grow up to be a young adult....
But i still need time to learn...
To be a girl who think wise and rationally....

Time to wake up and move on....
Kampate....

My family...

My friends always say that i am a princess in my home....
Cos i don know a lot of things......
But i am bless cos my family always care for me....

Starting my dad....
He is always teaching me...
General knowledge, bible knowledge, studies, political issue.....
How to be a better person...
Provide me and my sis with everything we need....
Send us here and there even though he is busy....

My mum....
She is always taking good care of us...
She also provide us everything we need....
My dad always buy eletrical things like radio, mp3 and others....
My mum always buy food, stationery and others....
She provide us in study...
We always talk when we are eating...
She will listen to my complain....

My sis.....
She is like a sheild to me....
She always protect me and care for me....
When i feel sad, she encourage me....
When i cry, she will be there....
I still remember when i had gastric pain,
She will be there taking care of me....

I am very thankful and bless with my family.....

Thanks so much....
I love you, dad, mum and my sis....

Sad day...

Sad...........
Today i make some mistakes......

Today, my dad ask me to drive the car out from house.
I am not that good.....
I did not realise i was too left already....
Den i bang into the pagar.....
The bumper of the car is blocked by the pagar...

I don know wat to do....
Den my dad come and help me....

When i saw the car is damaged,
I fell so sad and guilty.....
I really don know wat to do.....

Luckily, my dad did not scold me....
He just say that next time turn to right first then turn left...
He say that treat this as a lesson....

I still fell very guilty and lost....
Don know wat to do...
The only thing i can is cry....

I went inside my house....
My sis just tell me that dad will take care everything, so no need to worry...
And don cry already...

My grandmother was the worst....
She tell me not to cry...
Cos my dad is like that one...
He got bad tempered....

I was crying....
But my heart knows that my dad is not scolding me....
And i cry cos i am guilty....

She is my nightmare......

Den i spend time online....
Now feeling ok...
I think i still want to drive although experience this....
Kampate.....

Misunderstanding.......

Misunderstanding can break a relationship...
Even best friends....

This happen on me within this year....
I know that i am wrong...
But i don know how to say sorry to her...
Although the thing has pass, i still feel sorry.
I am truly sorry.
Although i cannot say to you face to face.

Now my friends is experiencing this...
It just a small misunderstanding....
But i hope they can settle....

I think my friend will be scolding me...
Cos i am not one of the person involve...
But is my dearest sister and brother.......
But i really hope that i can help in it...

Let all the misunderstand disappear.....
Let the friendship being rebuild again....

Friends forever...
I love you, My Friends...
In church and in school...
This is from my heart.....
I hope u all can feel it....

My car....

Yeah....
I can drive to church already....
Cos I got car.....

My dad got a brand new car.
So, he give me the small kelisa.....

Actually is good to drive small car...
Cos it is easy...

I know i am short.....
But i got license de....
So it is legal for me to drive...
I know it sound a bit unbelieveable...
But it is true....

Yeah............
I can drive wherever i want...
But i still need to tell my parents....

I am so so happy....

Love....

To me....

Love is happy....
When u see someone u love, u feel so happy.
When u know he is sick, u feel so worry.
When u cannot see him, u feel so sad.

Love is hurt...
When u realise u cannot love him, ur heart break...
When u see him with another girl, u feel so sad.
How u wish the girl was u....

Love is a test...
Test how much love u have for him.
Test how much trust u have for him.
Test how much faith u have for him.

Time to let go........
I know.
It is so hard to do it....
But he deserve a better girl...
Time to stand up again...

Actually, love can be so so hurt....

Study.....

OMG.....
Trials is coming.
But still no mood to study..
Don know wat to do.....

Haiz.........

I really need to study....
Trials is very important....
But don know why...
Cannot study...

Study half way Den want to eat or my brain cannot absorb anymore...
Need to work hard...
Kampate....

Camp.....

I went for a two day and one night camp.....
I think my friend will be scolding me cos after holiday is my very important trials.....
But i still feel very happy in camp....

I realise something in the camp, tat is.....
APPEARANCE AND LOOK CAN BE DECEIVING....

Why i say so ....

First, i still look younger than my real age...
Haha.....
Cos in the camp, there are someone who don know me and my real age.....
Naughty me go and find out and see who got it correct....
the nearest is 17 years old....
The smallest age in their guess is 13 year old....
Haha..........
Conclusion, i still look younger than my real age..
But my friend they always remind me that i am old aleady.....

Secondly, my friend bf is actually a different person than i think....
Before the camp, i always tink tat he is a quiet person....
In fact, no....
He is a person who pretend to be quiet....
But actually he is very very good in 'shoot' people....
He always say me until i feel so angry(not real one but kidding one)
Cos i don know how to talk back.....

Third, there are two brothers tat very very tall....
I also thought are quiet one....
But,they are noisy one (a bit la....)

Therefore, human look can be deceiving.....
So, don judge a person by his or her look.........

Envy and jealous

Envy and jealous bring a terrible effect on people, family and country.........

Cos of jealousy...
People don appreciate wat they had....
People hate one and another....
People always complaining...

A family is destroy...
Family members always think bad about other member...
There is no peace in family...

A country will lose a talented people...
A country will be weak and easily attacked by other country...(which will not happen in modern time)

Why cannot people be good to others???
I think we know the effect of all this....
People still envy others and jealous about it....
It leads to hatred (sometimes)..
And it will cause a lot of trouble and others hate him.....

All this i learn it from tv dramas......
Cos of jealousy and envy and own benefits,
It leads to a lot of sadness and unforgiveness...

Why people wanted power so much???
Wat can power bring???
wealth, happiness, love and others........

But is that really important???

Maybe i am too naive....
Cos i really don understand people.....

Human are complicated....
Me too....
I am complicated.......

Friends...............

A little faith brightens are rainy day

Life is difficult u can go away

Don't hide yourselvies in a corner

You have my place to stay

Sorrow is gonna say goodbye

Opens up u see the happy sunshine

Keep going on with yr dream

Chasing tomorrow sunrise

The spirit can never die

Sun will shine my friend

Won't let you cry my dear

Seeing you 'll share the tear

Make my woe disappear

You never be alone in darkness

See my smile my friend

We are with you holding hands

You have god to believe

You are my destiny

We meant to be yr friends

That's what a friendship be

My phone..........

My poor phone.....

My sister accidentally break the place where it cover memory card....

My poor phone....

I know my sister guilty about that.....

So, i don scold her la......

just still feel very sad....

But the main things is......
The phone still can use...
haha...
Just need to be extra careful in using it......

Trials.....

28 days more to trials....

scary....
cos got a lot of things to study.....
haven started to do revision....
a lot of things to remember.....

don know wat to do....

just want to focus on study....

KAMPATE...........

Thanks..........

Thanks passerby.....
I admit i have wrongs...
And i did a lot.....

I know i have make a lot of people angry.....
I know i hurt a lot of people.....
I am sorry for that.....
I am truly sorry.....

Maybe i am still a immature girl.....
A girl who haven grow up.....
Sorry...........................

Thanks for scolding me......
Thanks for all my friends care....
I know your all care for me.....

Anger is something i am still learning to control....
And here is where i can lent it out....
And i think i hurt a lot of people through this blog.....
I think i create a lot of trouble.....
I am sorry....
It is all my faults....

But this is the place where i tell my true feelings.....
Hope that your all will tell me wat should i do or to improve....

Lastly, sorry and thanks.

Heart..........

My heart is still bleeding......

Wait for time to heal the hurt inside me.....

Time to refocus on study.....

Don think about it anymore.....

Cos books won betray u........

Where i can really hand my heart over....

People is complicated....

Me too....

So my friend ... don worry for me.....

I will stand up someday....

When my heart stop hurting....

When my heart stop bleeding...

When my hopes come back....

When my dreams come back...

When i have the courage to face friends and people....

WAITING FOR THAT DAY TO COME..........