My Year 1 sem 1

I just finish my first sem.......
Just finish my finals............
Currently in JB......
Enjoy my three weeks holidays.............

I really have to thanks God...........
Cos of my finals..........
He always prepare the best for me...........
Love God so much...........
U will be wondering why i say so..........
Cos compare to last sem........
Some of our paper are easier........
I feel that the paper is ok ok...
Some of it i know how to do...........
Haha...........
I know my friends want to kill me already...........
:P.......

In their eyes,
I am a genius....
But i am not.......
Haha.......

During exam, i went to KL and listen to a talk.........
And i find it very interesting............
Learn a lot things during there..............
Some things u cannot learn it in textbook.........
That is how to be a person..........
How to build up ur character..........
That is wat i learn there.........
Gratitude and be thankful for everything that u have........
Thankful to others for teach u........
Learn how to be with others..........
Learn how to take care of myself...............
And a lot of things.........

Then after that, i go to my friends' place to study......
And we have fun and study together............
I laugh like crazy..........
And my friend prediction is quite correct....
Some did not come out....
But some really come out....
Thanks God that i got study............
And i come back here, JB.............

I really thank God.....
For putting me there............
Cos learn a lot of things........
Although some things happen,
But it let me see clearer......
Wat kind of a person i am........
I am like a shell fish...........
The outside of me maybe smiling...
but the inside me are not..........
I like to keep all my secret inside...
If someone can break my shell,
Then i will tell.....
Weird, right?
Thats me...
Haha.............
So my friends will find that i am emo.............
Blog sometime help me to say out wat i want to say..........
haha...............
But thanks every friends that i have in Kampar........
Without them...
I don know how i will be able to survive.....
So, thanks a lot.....
My friends.............

Now enjoying my holidays..............
Totally relaxing....
Haha...................
And later have to say bye bye to my black nails le.....
And paint a new one....
:P........

魔力

I have you to be with
Everything will be easy
曬的陽光淋的雨滴
都值得回憶

I have you to be with
才懂心不夠近才怕距離
心電感應絕不斷訊
 會如影隨形

曾灰心以為 我來錯了世界
太多想法很另類 找不到人瞭解
當我說的感覺 牽動著你的臉
互動的淚 讓我們變得特別

你是我的魔力 想要勇敢就想你
一眨眼睛 把不如意 都變成流星
你是我的魔力 心情不好我就想你
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This a quite old song............
But I can say it touch me...........
First, i was attracted by the soft and sweet music...........
But after reading the lyrics.......
I find it very true.............
Cos this is wat i do...............
Thinking of my friends and family..............
And this make me strong.....
Cos in Kampar.........
I am alone....
No one to depend.........
But thinking of them really make me feel like........
I can do it........

For my dearest family and friends,
I have you to be with.........
And everything will be easy..............
Every moment that we spend together..............
Is worth to remember............
You are the magic in my life..........
You make me stronger...........
And every sadness have become meteor........
Just remain in my life for a short period........
Miss u all so much........
My real family member - dad, mum, chyi......
My gossip club members and form 6 friends........
My church family members and friends,
My kampar friends..........

Starry can smile here...........
Cos she knows........
Family and friends will always be there..........
No matter how far we are apart.......
You will always in my heart...........
Starry will do her best in everything..........
Kampate.............

Perfect...........

Wat is the meaning of perfect???
No mistake???
Everything is fantastics???
Can anyone be perfect???


I believe no one is perfect.....
Everyone has their own strength and weakness........
Me too..........
I am not perfect..............
I have my own weakness...........


But in my friends' eyes.............
I am like a genius..........
Someone who is perfect in everything........
But i am not............
I don want to be someone like that...........


I am just a little kid..........
A crying baby...........
Immature..........
Naive...........
Childish..............
No more perfectionism...........


Perfectionism make me so stress before........
Make me a person who so scare to make mistake.........
But now i know..........
We are imperfect person.........
Imperfect person do imperfect things..........
Imperfect things is mistakes........
So, Imperfect people make mistakes.......
This is normal..........


I am no longer scare.......
But i will improve..............
Be someone better.................


Starry will grow stronger.....
Starry will become a better person................
Starry will be someone more mature............
Kampate, Starry............
Starry can do it................

Maths..............

Why............................................
Haiz..........................

Today having maths test.........................
But i forget most of the formula................
Haiz.............
And my friend forget to bring her slip........
then i accompany her to print the slip............
And i am late into the hall...........
haiz...........
Doing my test in a very nervous situation.......
And very cold..........
Everything forget.............

Going to work hard for my next paper.............
Two more........
And i will go back JB.
Yeah...............
So happy........................

Kampate Starry......
I can do it.................

Miss someone in life........

Missing someone in my life.......

And that someone is............

My shining friends........

All girls.............

Haha..................

Sorry............

My heart is dying.............

My heart has broken into pieces...........

And i still don want to glue it back............

So, starry don want any love......

The love she have right now is for friends and family.....

And it just normal friends...............

Haha.............

Miss my form 6 life so much...........

Miss the time i have with the gossip club...............

Miss the time fighting with Lian..............

Miss the time to tease her too............

Miss the time when Hze start to ask question.............

Miss the time where chi always conteng..............

Miss the time where PP always laughing..............

Her EPSP is always so high..............

Miss the time we have Nasi Lemak together............

Miss the time where we teach da ge - leen chinese..............

Her chinese is not bad cos she is a banana...........

Miss the quiet Lene who always eat so healthy............

Miss the time where Da jie Ning doing her homework..............

Miss the time where i always sleep in the class...............

And when i am not feeling well..........

They will always know it...............

Just want to tell them.............

As we go on...........

We remember..........

All the times we have together..........

As our life change............

Come whatever.............

We will still be..........

Friends Forever............

Really love the song so much..............

Graduation/ Friends Forever by Vitamin C..............

When i first listen to it...........

I love it so much.......

Cos wat the song say is so true...............

No matter how much we want to go back to that time..........

We cannot........

Is time for us to leave............

But in my heart..............

I know that one day i will be meeting my friends again................

And no matter what happens,

We will still be............

FRIENDS FOREVER...............

Starry love u all so much............................................

Ning, Leen, PP, Hze, Chi, Lian, Lene, TKS, chui yen, shuba, shaker, Yee Ser, Shen yee, Mun Chin....................

Miss the time we have so much...

Lying down on my bed right now.....

Thinking abt the past.................

It is sweet memories..............

Is time to move forward...........

But in my heart......

I still love that period of time so much................

Starry love u all.............

The first day of test.......

The first day of test...............

Thanks God........

Cos the paper consider easy..............

At least i know wat to write........

Not like last sem paper.......

Totally don know wat to do.............

When our senior who is Y1 Sem 2 see our paper,

He say is very easy.....

He will be like laughing........

I cannot deny that..........

But i not sure whether i can do it well or not......

Haiz............

But thanks God not that difficult..............

Yesterday was a bit stress............

Scare of tomorrow........

Luckily got a song.........

It helps me to calm down and rebuild my faith.....................

It is a very sweet and nice song...........

Thanks God..............

Just realize......

I lose weigh.........

In one week time............

Seriously..............

Last Sun still go out and have dinner with her..........

Today she is like....

U become thinner o.............

I don know should i be happy or worried.......

Cos is like abnormal............

But i know.......

It just during this time only............

During holidays sure gain weight one........

Haha....................

Today's dinner is super full........

We have set meal and dessert..........

Nice....

But very full........

I am so scare that i could not make in on time for test............

Recently, my lifestyle is disturb......

I am more and more like a cat............

A cat who sleep during day time..........

And study and play during night time...........

Took so long to adjust back to normal lifestyle.......

And yet took few days to change it to this kind of lifestyle.......

Funny right?

This lifestyle only can have it here......

If in JB, my dad will be nagging...........

Going to prepare for test ady.......

But still no mood........

Is in a playful mood........

Not stress mood......

Not study mood......

Kampate............

Starry can do it...............

Starry can do all things through christ.....................

Haiz..........

Going crazy.............................

OMG................

Tomorrow my finals starts...........

And look at me...........

Still online........

Totally no mood to study..................

Everything seems that i know and yet don know.....................

Hate this kind of feeling...............

Feel like screaming............

Feel like going back to JB.................

Feel like escape to the outer space...................

A...............................................

I really don know wat to do................

Everyday try to study...................

Got study...........

But not much.........

I don know take how much time to finish one subject.................................

Feeling stress........

And yet seems like totally no stress...........

Weird, right???

That kind of feeling............

hate it so much.............

nothing seems right..........................

Not feeling well.........

Lazy.........................

Starry really don know how to study.................................

God, help me....................

Going to work hard............

In the limited time..............

Kampate.....................

I can do it...............

With God, i can do all things.............................

Hurting someone unintentionally.....

My selfish....

Always hurt ppl unintentionally........

Hurting my friends..................

Haiz.........

Silly starry......

Why do u always find it when u are losing ur friend..............

Today have a chat with my friend...........

Just realize i am hurting him....

Silly, right?

Stupid, right?

Ya.....

This is the starry that u know.............

Starry feel bad after hurting him................

But nothing starry can do ady........

Just really want to say sorry........

Although it does not help much.....

In starry life,

I maybe unintentionally hurting my best friends around me..........

I am truly sorry.............

But does not help anymore......

Just hope that the hurt is not there ady............

Forget about me.............

Forget the starry that hurt u..............

And have a wonderful life.................

I will just keep the hurt into the pandora box......

A box that should not open................

Just hope the silly starry don do that again...............

I am not noble.......

But i am guilty................

Cos i don want anyone to be hurt........................

The silly starry....

Stupid starry.........

Is going to grow up...........

And learn things through the hard way..............

JB..............

I MISS JB............................................

Last thursday i went back JB....

To enjoy my 6 days holidays....

But before going back.....

I have a second heart attack......

Haha.......

Cos i overslept....

And i have test on that day....

Luckily the lecturer allow me to join other group.....

So i join my friend's group and have test....

Then late for the bus....

Luckily the bus haven move yet....

Kena scolded by the cashier there......

But nothing happen.....

Safely arrive at KL.....

Chat with my sis a while.....

Then go back JB....

Enjoy home cook food.....

And watch TV......

Watch my favourite korean TV series....

The temptation of wife.....

Still find it very very nice....

Although i watch that before......

A girl can be strong without guys....

Haha..........

Then the next day,

Having breakfast with my grandparents and my uncle and aunt.............

My grandmother is nagging abt my nails.....

Cos i paint it black.....

She find it scary....

So next time i am not going to paint this colour in front her...........

Then try cooking curry.....

Long time never cook......

So almost forget how to cook le........

Luckily my aunt beside me.....

And give me instruction....

Then go out with my aunt to fetch my cousins.....

Raining heavily......

Then come back........

Chating........

Playing with my cousin.....

Online....

Then at night.......

Feeling confused and depress..............

Don want to come back Kampar...........

But have to............

Then next day.....

I become a driver....

Go to school to fetch my cousin...........

Then go Jusco....

Meet up with Hazel Jie Jie......

Now only i realized how her life had been.....

Is so stressful........

One hour they have to finish one chapter..............

So the lecturer only tell them wat is important and wat is not important.................

And their timetable is kept on changing..............

And their study hour is so long.............

From morning to evening............

I feel so luckily.......

My timetable consider quite relaxing.......

Having a relax time....

But so sad cos she is going to India soon......

Going to miss her.....

She has been someone who support during my Form 6 life.....

Although i only know her for one year....

But since then we are like best friends....

Then going to practice for Sunday service......

Back to stage.....

Scary.....

Almost three months did not touch my piano.....

So scare that i could not play like before....

And i am going to play in front of one to two thousand adult.........

And some of them are better than me...............

Really Scary..........

Luckily i still can play........

Like before....

But i know my skill has not improving......

But i lose some of my skill.....

Need time to find it back.......

But still the sweet music.....

The music that i play is still sweet and nice....

Haha...........

Then sunday,

After serving, then go see my bro play drum...........

Is like went back to my old life......

But got one difference......

When i meet my friends,

After hi, is always that phrase....

U come back ady.....

I will be smiling and saying ya...........

Ya.....

I am back to where i belong....

Be a little princess...........

Then, they got a time for Jamming......

Some learn drum....

Some play guitar....

Some play piano....

I want to learn drum....

My friends is shock......

So sad....

My bro is not around.....

His drum is fantastic.....

So no one teach me....

Next time when i go back,

I want to learn drum.....

Don say i am crazy.....

Cos is fun..........

Then we have lunch together.....

I have lunch with my bro and my godmother......

They dote me a lot.........

Having so much fun.....

My bro feed me....

Haha.....

I got feed them la.....

Playing around......

And 'sa jiao' with them....

Long time never did that ady....

At here, i dare not do that to my friends.....

I only dare to do that with my bros.....

Miss them so much.....

Have dinner with my dad....

And watch a interesting show....

Talks abt the magics biggest secret.....

So cool.......

They teach u how to perform magic......

Magic is all about lies.....

They are not real....

They are able to cheat u......

Then next day...........

Not feeling very well....

My lips is very dry....

Feeling dizzy.......

But still driving down to my grandmothers house...

During the journey....

Not dare to speed....

Drive safely....

Thanks god that my head is not dizzy during that time....

Then go fetch my cousin......

I realized i am brave.......

Compared to the time that i just got my license.....

Not scare by the car any more.....

Then have a nap......

Then attend my cousin's birthday party......

Meet my old friends....

Two years ago,

I went to Genting with my cousin....

That time she meet her friend there.....

We play archery together....

So long ago....

A bit forget ady.....

Her friend was there in the party.....

He could not believe i am older than him....

He thought that i am younger.....

My face can really cheat ppl.....

Then meet up with some friends that long time never meet.....

Have a chat....

And playing.......

So fun....

But headache.......

Then have to pack up and come back here....

Don really feel like coming back....

When i was at JB,

I am like a little princess....

At Kampar,

I have to be an adult....

Which i am learning.....

Really hard....

But i have to....

Cos i don want to be a little girl anymore....

A girl who always cry when face problem....

But be an adult who face problems bravely.....

Kampate Starry.....

Starry can do it one....

Smile............