My Year 1 Sem 2

My second sem....
A short sem...
Means tat i only study for seven weeks...
Not even one week study week...
And three days of finals....
Short, right?
This is the system of my uni....
Others Uni only has two sem one year...
We have three sem....
This means that we are going to finish our course earlier...
Haha..........

This sem i took three subject.....
Totally no science subject......
The subjects are computer system and application, Moral and Pengajian Malaysia..........
Weird, right?
Why do science students need to study computer???
Don ask me....
Cos i don know.....
Ask my uni punya ppl.....
The others are compulsory.....
This sem i did not add any subject....
Some did la...

At first....
I thought that it would be very free....
Cos i only have class for four days only....
And short time....
But right now...
I would rather take long sem than short sem....
Cos when assignment come...
Is crazy......

The second week of the sem....
We are informed that on week 2 we will get the question for assignment.....
Then week 3 pass up....
I am like ' crazy'....
The time so short....
But luckily it postpone....
To week 5....

The beginning was very relax....
Until Deepavali....
On that week, i go back JB to take my IC.........
I change my IC during the sem break....
Then have fun in the church....
That time my sis and i come back....
Now really hard to meet her....
Cos our holidays are different.....
But she usually go Kampar to find me....

On the week 3 which is the Deepavali week,
We have test...
Is divided into 2 grps...
One on Tues, One on Weds...
Two  different paper...
The lecturer got give us tips...
But yet...
On that day, the paper switch....
I am in the Tues grp....
Yet i did paper for the weds grps....
Funny, right?
Haiz...
I did badly....

On week 4, start to prepare for assignment....
And test....
And something happens....
Since then, I am in a confusion and uncertainty period...
A lot of things happen and i don know wat to do...
And my relationship with God is also not good..............
Lazy to go to church and i seldom pray...
So thats why, i seems so emo...
And seems that i usually that way....

Then from Thurs of the week 5 to Wed of week 6....
Is the craziest week...
I will always remember...
Why?
Cos two assignment have to pass up and two test coming plus the register of the course next sem....
Crazy....
And i am chosen to be leader but yet i don know...
They just write my name and after that only tell me....
Haiz....
Everyday not enough sleep....
In a stress situation....
Yet i pass it through....

The registration of the course is also a big problem....
On mon i only know that the coming wed going to register...
And the timetable given also weird...
English we have three lecture class to choose from...
But only one of the slot will not crash our time slot for others subject....
Haiz........
We have to fight for it....

Then two presentation on week 7, which is the last week...
Our grp is the last...
So we have only short period of time in the study week....

Although it seems that i have so  much to complain,
Yet there are fun times too....

The first is my friend, Kent's birthday....
A grp of us go his house and celebrate...
We have steamboat and beer....
We have cards game too.....
My Kampar friends have seen the others side of me...
Which they have never seen...
I believe it is....
They all did not know that...
I like to fight back with others...
In a friendly way....
First time drinking beer...
I usually drink red wine....
So is like not fun....
I drink tiger...
Seriously not nice....
I could not feel the alcohol...
I found another friend who love red wine as me...
Haha.....
Then we sing songs and going to cut the cake...
But the cake fell from table...
So sad...
We have 'cake fight'....
Throwing cakes to someone always bully me...
Then we play true or dare....
Getting to know my friends better.....
Then we go back home....
Is very fun...

On the way back...
We are chatting...
Then my friends say that i am a mystery....
I am like someone who usually don say out wat i am thinking....
Thats true...
I am a person like tat.....
Through blog...
U may know more about wat i am thinking,....
But not 100%..........

Then i celebrate my 20th birthday in Kampar.....
Old ady still want to be like kid...
This is wat my friends in JB say....
Haha....
I have 2 surprise party and cake...
And a lot of wish in FB and sms.....
Thanks a lot, friends......
Have fun...
Never think that someone would actually celebrate my birthday for me....
Haha.....

I went Ipoh during that sem....
And bought a lot of books...
And there...
I finally confirm one thing....
Coffee is used to be my energy booster...
But now become my sleeping pills....
Haha...
Don know why...
But sad...
Cannot drink coffee anymore............

Right now enjoying my holidays...
Waiting to go out desperately....
Haha......
Happy, Starry.......

My first day of holidays.....

My exam end earlier....

So I come back for holidays....

I am seems to be a little princess.....

Cos my dad come to kampar to pick me....

Actually he went to kl to do something.....

Then he just come to kampar and pick me.....

So i no need to sit bus and went back....

Is a very nice trip back....

Cos we always chat in the car....

From guitar to driving to church to study....

Almost everything....

Then i try out driving waja..... 

Which is my dad's car.....

Is like the first time....

Driving it....

I like the feeling....

Not because of its gear.....

Cos i usually drive manual car....

First time driving auto car....

Is because when i speed...

I don have the kind of feeling that it is speeding....

Cos it is too heavy and fat....

My mum and i called it that way....

Only my dad and my sis will like it...

My mum and i still like the small car....

My kelisa....

Haha.......

Then, i went out with my AG friends......

I feel like i am going out with guys....

Cos there are 10 ppl....

Only three are girls...

The rest are all guys....

Haha....

Cos the girls are busy....

So only me and another friend,J are free....

Thats why lo....

Then we went to redbox.....

One of our friends,Z not going with us.....

He say he don want la....

And supposedly we should not....

Cos we are involve in the music ministry....

Then they say try not to....

But we still went....

Haha.....

Naughty us.......

We sing like crazy....

First time...

Singing Korean Song there.....

Only my friend, B ,my godbrother, R and the girl, J knows.......

Others was like...

Looking at us.....

Looking at B dancing......

haha.....

So sad his GF not there....

Haha.....

Then we all went back...

Cos my godmother and godbrother going shopping....

B has drum class...

Then we went back home....

The craziest song that we sing is....

You Raise Me Up....

An old song....

But we have fun......

Everyone standing on the chair....

And sing.....

Then the next song also.....

Hong Qing Ting.....

J say, this song sure i choose one la....

Cos i like ma....

Then the song very cute..........

I have a lot of crazy moment with them...........

Although our age difference is big.....

But be with them....

I can be like a 12 years old kid.....

Seriously.....

Not need to force myself to be an adult....

But yet just play......

We are known as the AG....

We are fun.....

We do things together.....

We play musical instrument together....

Cos most of us known music....

For those who don know,

There are the singers.....

This is us....

Special and unique.....

Haha............

This is just the start.....

There will be more events coming....

Christmas is coming....

Haha...

Going to celebrate......

Starry going to enjoy her holidays to the fullness....

Happy Starry.....

Preparing for finals....

Can u imagine???
Seven week has pass in just a blink of eye...........
So fast...............
This sem is a short sem..........
So i only study seven week...
Then start preparing for finals....
Happy cos exam finish early....
And i got to go back JB to celebrate christmas....
And more than one months holiday....
Haha........

But this sem subject...
Is super duper boring....
Boring until u feel like sleeping when u study....
But have to work hard......
Cos have to pull my CGPA up....
My CGPA for last sem is not very good...
So have to work hard...
Kampate starry....

A lot of things happen in this sem....
And i am lazy to blog about it....
But i will write it....
During the holidays....

Two days before is my birthday....
Happy birthday to me....
Really having fun with my friends....
Having surprise....
More to write and update my friends about the recent me....
I will continue to work hard......

KAMPATE, STARRY......
SMILE........

:)

ANGRY...........

Right now really very de bu shuang...............
Cos of someone........
a................
Really feel like beating her.................

Wat la.................
Always bully those who are weaker than her.....................
Always like to show off...............
Always like to wear transparent shirt.................
Always like to look down on us..............
Sorry.........
We are not as weak as you............
You are not much different than us............
Stupid Idiot......................

Really not feeling very good right now...........
A lot of things haven do...........
Going crazy.....................
Haiz..................
Just want to do my best......
Thats all................
Not going to do much thing................
.Not going to worry ady..........
But let go and Let god take everything...........
But can I really do that?

Smile starry...........
Do ur best...............
Kampate...................

SPM and STPM.....

Today is the first day of SPM and STPM...........
Wow.............
One year ady...............
Since STPM......
But memories are still so fresh.................
We have so much fun there................
I will never forget that.............

Can u imagine??
Time flies so much...........
That without us knowing it............
Last year during this time,
We are still studying hard to face STPM....
Right now,
We are in our Uni life............
And separated.................

How i wish to go back.....
But cannot........
Right now.........
Have to enjoy my Uni life.............

This is life...........
Once u start,
There is no turning back...........
U cannot reverse that time and start all over........
So, appreciate every time u have............
Haha..............

I will be smiling here............
Cos i know they will be there for me........
I will be there for them......
To support them.........

At here,
I will enjoy my life..........
Although they are not around me............
But at here,
I meet some nice friends...............
Jia you.......
And thanks so much..............

Smile starry.............
Starry is getting stronger...................
Kampate..................

爱情与友情

看完了一个故事，

只觉得如果真的是故事就好了。。。

不想要他发生在现实生活中。。。

有时候，

我还是会分不清，

什么是友情？

什么是爱情？

可是，

现在的我，

不想去谈爱情。。。

只想拥有友情。。。

真的很希望世上所有的有情人都能终成眷属。。。

可是真正做到得又有几个。。。

所以要好好珍惜你的另一半。。。

别让他哭。。。。

有些东西失去了就再也不会回来了。。。

所以要珍惜。。。

I am not emo......

Just feeling a bit sad.............

I am someone easily affected by things.............

So, feeling sad after reading the story................

really.............

But going to be stronger.............

The word above just something to remind me and share.............

I am not writing it to scold ppl............

Haha..............

Going to work hard for test..............

This few days is going to be crazy.......................

Haha.............

Wait for my post to tell u wat happen......

Smile, Starry..............

我。。。

今天的我。。。
不像我。。。
只觉得很悲伤。。。
心情超级的差。。。
手上的伤在告诉我。。。
不要再继续悲伤下去。。。
可是，
我做不到。。。

突然好想念Form 6 的日子。。。。
那一段时间，
是我活到现在。。。
最快乐的日子。。。
真的。。。。
好想家。。。
好想回去。。。
真的。。。

心中一直有个盒子。。。
一个潘多拉的盒子。。。
一个注定不能打开的盒子。。。
一个装满悲伤和伤痛的盒子。。。
一直埋在心底。。。
今天的伤痛，
我把它全部收进去。。。
一点也不想打开。。。
可是，
总是有事情发生。。。
而把它打开。。。

我的心啊。。。。
你要被伤到什么程度。。。
才能不再痛。。。
才能不再流血。。。

阿。。。。
我真的很想做一个雪人。。。
一个不再为任何时而哭的人。。。
一个不会因为事情而受伤的人。。。
一个没有感情的人。。。

情。。。
好伤人啊。。。。。
无论是爱情，友情还是亲情。。。
都一样。。。。

我或许太过于敏感。。。。
才会觉得这样。。。。

朋友，
放心吧。。。
这只是一个过渡期。。。
我需要时间和空间来疗伤。。。
伤好了，我就会恢复以前的我。。。。
可是那真的是我吗？

Which is the real me???
Where have my real me go???
What is my purpose living here???
When will i get the answer???
How am i going to continue???

Numerous question,
No where to find the answer........
Maybe time will give me the answer.......
When the time is right,
When i am more mature....
When i am more like a grow up...........

Smile starry,
Although it is hard............
There are always someone there for u......
Kampate.............

Many people will walk in and  out of ur life,
but only true friends will leave footprints on your heart.............

Time....

Just realized........
I am wasting my time........
Time is like water...............
Slipping away............
And i cannot get it back................
Haiz..................

Really have to start study...............
Everyday saying the same thing....
Again and again...............
But still cannot do it.......
Haiz..............

Starry, work hard.........

This week going to be a busy week...........
Two assignment and two test is waiting for me................
Kampate, Starry..............
You can do it............

Just realized.............
People here...
Very hardworking.......
Even though there is holiday....
Even though they are old.............
But still work hard to earn money......
Very ' pei fu'
I am going to do that too...
When i am old...........

Life is short and fragile.............
So,
Appreciate every minutes that u have..........
Have u ever be sure that,
U will be able to see today's Sunset or tomorrow's sunrise???
A lot of things can be happen in this short 12 hours.............
Really reminded me..........
To grab hold and use fully my time................
 I repent and changing.............
To be a better person.............

Kampate starry............
U can do it............
Work hard and use fully ur time............
Smile.................

UPSR.....

Today is UPSR result released...........
Sorry,
I am not the one taking.....
Haha....
My UPSR already pass long time ago....
My cousins and my god-brother taking.............
They did ok...............
But they are not satisfied with it................
They are sad with the result............
I feel like laughing...........
Seriously................
To me, they are good ady..................
But don compare mine with them la............
Haha......................

Kampate, cousin and bro...............
Continue to work hard in secondary.....
I want to work hard too.........

Kampate, Starry...........

哭了。。。

我又哭了。。。
原来我没想像中那么的坚强。。。
以为我再也不哭了。。。
可是眼泪却不停地流下来。。。。
我不想哭。。。
我想要更坚强。。。。
可是确怎样也做不到。。。

哭得像个小孩。。。
原来我一点也不想离开。。。。
可是却得离开。。。

想理智一点。。。
却怎样也做不到。。。。
我做不到。。。。

First time writing in Chinese....
Don know why....
Maybe Chinese can really describe how i feel right now.....
Don feel like going to study....
Really don want.............

Emotionally i don want......
But i know i have to......
Haiz................

Study make me grow up more....
Just realize....
I am forcing myself to grow up....
So much more than just let myself grow up naturally.....
I am just a kid....
Am I still a kid/??
I think i am no longer a kid......
Although how much my heart long to be...............

I know one thing....
After crying....
I will grow stronger......
Every time like that one.....
Crying is so natural..............
But after that,
I will grow stronger....

Starry will become stronger.....
She will be a better person....
Kampate......................

Test.....

A.................................
Did badly in my test....................
Really....
Seriously...................................

Today i have my Pengajian Malaysia test............
Although i learn it before,
In my secondary school..........
But i could not remember it...........
And the question is tricky..............
And the tips is almost correct.............
The tips were given by the lecturer...........
And in the test,
There are questions not in the tips................
So,
Die lo...............
And there are question about the dates......
Haiz........

Luckily, this paper i have to pass only....
Not counted in CGPA....
Haha......
Tomorrow going back JB.............
O.... Happy Day............
Haha.....................

I love JB...........
And i am coming back.............

Starry going to work hard in this sem....
Cos last sem did quite badly.....
Kampate, Starry...................

Losing Appetite....

I am losing my appetite.......
I am losing my fats.............
I have to admit......
I want to lose weight..........
But this kind of losing weight..........
Make me scare more than happy.............

Maybe my mood affect my appetite.............
Even my friends can see that i am down..............
Just so down............
Things happen so sudden................
And it seriously affect my appetite...........

Can u imagine how much i ate a day?
Normally, i can eat quite a lot............
Recently, one day i only ate two packet of biscuit........
Small packet.......
Each packet has two to three piece only...........
Yesterday i had one pack of tidbits and a few piece of bread...
Thats all............
Today i had a piece of cake and a half packet of instant noodle........
Thats all..................
Can u imagine??
My friends and family who had seen me eat will realize......
That my appetite reduce so much............
Right now,
I need my appetite back...........
So much..........
One day, i am going to find back my appetite.........
And my smile............

Starry will happily living here...........
Right now,
Starry need time to gain back............
Starry will be fine soon.......
Smile.............

Yesterday's night till todays night...............

Something happens to me and my friends...........
Within one day..........
Feeling sad and down.............

Yesterday night,
Receive a sms from godmother..............
Telling us that my best friend, S..............
Will only go to night service.............
And she got no phone to use..............
And her FB will stop................
This is like so sudden..................
At first,
I was thinking that maybe she is too stress............
Knowing her,
I have two guess.......
One is too stress....
And another one is she is hurt by someone...............
I know recently she is involved in 4 major event................
Then i just guess like that..............

Then i receive FB message from one of my best friend, J........................
She heard that there are some discussion between a guy, Z  and S ans my godmother.............
Is quite serious.............
I am angry...........
How can he be like that..............
There is one thing for sure.......
If he dare to hurt S...........
He have to watch out................
We will really fight back..............

So the most important thing is to find out the truth................
I am at here........
So, a lot of things i don know............
Sometimes really hate it...........
But wat to do.................
Have to study a..................
Haiz..............

Then, receive a weird phone call..............
Seriously speaking.............
That time i really don have the mood to play with her...............
Then she keep on asking me to guess who is she...............
She say she is same class as me in Form 4.............
I were like thinking.........
Who is she...........
And my phone spoil before..........
So some of my contact list gone................
So i don really know who is she.............
Then she say she found my phone number in her BF's phone....
I was like.............
Har...................
Then she say i seduce her BF..............
Hei, i don know who is she and her BF...............
How can i seduce him???
Weird, right?
Then she end the conversation........
Then i call my friends...............
And have a chat with them............
They tell me maybe a prank call...
Cos she receive it also................

Then today.............
Realize something wrong with my health............
Have to call my mum and tell her later..........
But a part of me don want to do so..........
Cos don want to make her worry..........
But i also don know wat to do..............
Haiz....................

A lot of things happen................
I am not that strong too..............
At this point,
Where i don know wat to do...........
The only thing is to pray......................
But i know...
These situation make me stronger............

Starry will get stronger.................
Starry going to take good care of herself...........
Kampate....................

Back to blogging...

Haha............
Long time never write blog ady.........
Cos during holidays start watching an anime...........
And i spend almost all my time there............
So did not write my blog............

During my hoilidays,
So many things....
So much fun i have....
So much weight i gain............
Seriously...............
I gain weight ady..............
Have to reduce it..............
Come back to kampar sure can lose weight one................
Haha...................

In this one month,
So much things happen....
Going to write it down one by one................
Haha................

My Year 1 sem 1

I just finish my first sem.......
Just finish my finals............
Currently in JB......
Enjoy my three weeks holidays.............

I really have to thanks God...........
Cos of my finals..........
He always prepare the best for me...........
Love God so much...........
U will be wondering why i say so..........
Cos compare to last sem........
Some of our paper are easier........
I feel that the paper is ok ok...
Some of it i know how to do...........
Haha...........
I know my friends want to kill me already...........
:P.......

In their eyes,
I am a genius....
But i am not.......
Haha.......

During exam, i went to KL and listen to a talk.........
And i find it very interesting............
Learn a lot things during there..............
Some things u cannot learn it in textbook.........
That is how to be a person..........
How to build up ur character..........
That is wat i learn there.........
Gratitude and be thankful for everything that u have........
Thankful to others for teach u........
Learn how to be with others..........
Learn how to take care of myself...............
And a lot of things.........

Then after that, i go to my friends' place to study......
And we have fun and study together............
I laugh like crazy..........
And my friend prediction is quite correct....
Some did not come out....
But some really come out....
Thanks God that i got study............
And i come back here, JB.............

I really thank God.....
For putting me there............
Cos learn a lot of things........
Although some things happen,
But it let me see clearer......
Wat kind of a person i am........
I am like a shell fish...........
The outside of me maybe smiling...
but the inside me are not..........
I like to keep all my secret inside...
If someone can break my shell,
Then i will tell.....
Weird, right?
Thats me...
Haha.............
So my friends will find that i am emo.............
Blog sometime help me to say out wat i want to say..........
haha...............
But thanks every friends that i have in Kampar........
Without them...
I don know how i will be able to survive.....
So, thanks a lot.....
My friends.............

Now enjoying my holidays..............
Totally relaxing....
Haha...................
And later have to say bye bye to my black nails le.....
And paint a new one....
:P........

魔力

I have you to be with
Everything will be easy
曬的陽光淋的雨滴
都值得回憶

I have you to be with
才懂心不夠近才怕距離
心電感應絕不斷訊
 會如影隨形

曾灰心以為 我來錯了世界
太多想法很另類 找不到人瞭解
當我說的感覺 牽動著你的臉
互動的淚 讓我們變得特別

你是我的魔力 想要勇敢就想你
一眨眼睛 把不如意 都變成流星
你是我的魔力 心情不好我就想你
刪除憂鬱 複製甜蜜 笑容不結冰

This a quite old song............
But I can say it touch me...........
First, i was attracted by the soft and sweet music...........
But after reading the lyrics.......
I find it very true.............
Cos this is wat i do...............
Thinking of my friends and family..............
And this make me strong.....
Cos in Kampar.........
I am alone....
No one to depend.........
But thinking of them really make me feel like........
I can do it........

For my dearest family and friends,
I have you to be with.........
And everything will be easy..............
Every moment that we spend together..............
Is worth to remember............
You are the magic in my life..........
You make me stronger...........
And every sadness have become meteor........
Just remain in my life for a short period........
Miss u all so much........
My real family member - dad, mum, chyi......
My gossip club members and form 6 friends........
My church family members and friends,
My kampar friends..........

Starry can smile here...........
Cos she knows........
Family and friends will always be there..........
No matter how far we are apart.......
You will always in my heart...........
Starry will do her best in everything..........
Kampate.............

Perfect...........

Wat is the meaning of perfect???
No mistake???
Everything is fantastics???
Can anyone be perfect???


I believe no one is perfect.....
Everyone has their own strength and weakness........
Me too..........
I am not perfect..............
I have my own weakness...........


But in my friends' eyes.............
I am like a genius..........
Someone who is perfect in everything........
But i am not............
I don want to be someone like that...........


I am just a little kid..........
A crying baby...........
Immature..........
Naive...........
Childish..............
No more perfectionism...........


Perfectionism make me so stress before........
Make me a person who so scare to make mistake.........
But now i know..........
We are imperfect person.........
Imperfect person do imperfect things..........
Imperfect things is mistakes........
So, Imperfect people make mistakes.......
This is normal..........


I am no longer scare.......
But i will improve..............
Be someone better.................


Starry will grow stronger.....
Starry will become a better person................
Starry will be someone more mature............
Kampate, Starry............
Starry can do it................

Maths..............

Why............................................
Haiz..........................

Today having maths test.........................
But i forget most of the formula................
Haiz.............
And my friend forget to bring her slip........
then i accompany her to print the slip............
And i am late into the hall...........
haiz...........
Doing my test in a very nervous situation.......
And very cold..........
Everything forget.............

Going to work hard for my next paper.............
Two more........
And i will go back JB.
Yeah...............
So happy........................

Kampate Starry......
I can do it.................

Miss someone in life........

Missing someone in my life.......

And that someone is............

My shining friends........

All girls.............

Haha..................

Sorry............

My heart is dying.............

My heart has broken into pieces...........

And i still don want to glue it back............

So, starry don want any love......

The love she have right now is for friends and family.....

And it just normal friends...............

Haha.............

Miss my form 6 life so much...........

Miss the time i have with the gossip club...............

Miss the time fighting with Lian..............

Miss the time to tease her too............

Miss the time when Hze start to ask question.............

Miss the time where chi always conteng..............

Miss the time where PP always laughing..............

Her EPSP is always so high..............

Miss the time we have Nasi Lemak together............

Miss the time where we teach da ge - leen chinese..............

Her chinese is not bad cos she is a banana...........

Miss the quiet Lene who always eat so healthy............

Miss the time where Da jie Ning doing her homework..............

Miss the time where i always sleep in the class...............

And when i am not feeling well..........

They will always know it...............

Just want to tell them.............

As we go on...........

We remember..........

All the times we have together..........

As our life change............

Come whatever.............

We will still be..........

Friends Forever............

Really love the song so much..............

Graduation/ Friends Forever by Vitamin C..............

When i first listen to it...........

I love it so much.......

Cos wat the song say is so true...............

No matter how much we want to go back to that time..........

We cannot........

Is time for us to leave............

But in my heart..............

I know that one day i will be meeting my friends again................

And no matter what happens,

We will still be............

FRIENDS FOREVER...............

Starry love u all so much............................................

Ning, Leen, PP, Hze, Chi, Lian, Lene, TKS, chui yen, shuba, shaker, Yee Ser, Shen yee, Mun Chin....................

Miss the time we have so much...

Lying down on my bed right now.....

Thinking abt the past.................

It is sweet memories..............

Is time to move forward...........

But in my heart......

I still love that period of time so much................

Starry love u all.............

The first day of test.......

The first day of test...............

Thanks God........

Cos the paper consider easy..............

At least i know wat to write........

Not like last sem paper.......

Totally don know wat to do.............

When our senior who is Y1 Sem 2 see our paper,

He say is very easy.....

He will be like laughing........

I cannot deny that..........

But i not sure whether i can do it well or not......

Haiz............

But thanks God not that difficult..............

Yesterday was a bit stress............

Scare of tomorrow........

Luckily got a song.........

It helps me to calm down and rebuild my faith.....................

It is a very sweet and nice song...........

Thanks God..............

Just realize......

I lose weigh.........

In one week time............

Seriously..............

Last Sun still go out and have dinner with her..........

Today she is like....

U become thinner o.............

I don know should i be happy or worried.......

Cos is like abnormal............

But i know.......

It just during this time only............

During holidays sure gain weight one........

Haha....................

Today's dinner is super full........

We have set meal and dessert..........

Nice....

But very full........

I am so scare that i could not make in on time for test............

Recently, my lifestyle is disturb......

I am more and more like a cat............

A cat who sleep during day time..........

And study and play during night time...........

Took so long to adjust back to normal lifestyle.......

And yet took few days to change it to this kind of lifestyle.......

Funny right?

This lifestyle only can have it here......

If in JB, my dad will be nagging...........

Going to prepare for test ady.......

But still no mood........

Is in a playful mood........

Not stress mood......

Not study mood......

Kampate............

Starry can do it...............

Starry can do all things through christ.....................

Haiz..........

Going crazy.............................

OMG................

Tomorrow my finals starts...........

And look at me...........

Still online........

Totally no mood to study..................

Everything seems that i know and yet don know.....................

Hate this kind of feeling...............

Feel like screaming............

Feel like going back to JB.................

Feel like escape to the outer space...................

A...............................................

I really don know wat to do................

Everyday try to study...................

Got study...........

But not much.........

I don know take how much time to finish one subject.................................

Feeling stress........

And yet seems like totally no stress...........

Weird, right???

That kind of feeling............

hate it so much.............

nothing seems right..........................

Not feeling well.........

Lazy.........................

Starry really don know how to study.................................

God, help me....................

Going to work hard............

In the limited time..............

Kampate.....................

I can do it...............

With God, i can do all things.............................

Hurting someone unintentionally.....

My selfish....

Always hurt ppl unintentionally........

Hurting my friends..................

Haiz.........

Silly starry......

Why do u always find it when u are losing ur friend..............

Today have a chat with my friend...........

Just realize i am hurting him....

Silly, right?

Stupid, right?

Ya.....

This is the starry that u know.............

Starry feel bad after hurting him................

But nothing starry can do ady........

Just really want to say sorry........

Although it does not help much.....

In starry life,

I maybe unintentionally hurting my best friends around me..........

I am truly sorry.............

But does not help anymore......

Just hope that the hurt is not there ady............

Forget about me.............

Forget the starry that hurt u..............

And have a wonderful life.................

I will just keep the hurt into the pandora box......

A box that should not open................

Just hope the silly starry don do that again...............

I am not noble.......

But i am guilty................

Cos i don want anyone to be hurt........................

The silly starry....

Stupid starry.........

Is going to grow up...........

And learn things through the hard way..............

JB..............

I MISS JB............................................

Last thursday i went back JB....

To enjoy my 6 days holidays....

But before going back.....

I have a second heart attack......

Haha.......

Cos i overslept....

And i have test on that day....

Luckily the lecturer allow me to join other group.....

So i join my friend's group and have test....

Then late for the bus....

Luckily the bus haven move yet....

Kena scolded by the cashier there......

But nothing happen.....

Safely arrive at KL.....

Chat with my sis a while.....

Then go back JB....

Enjoy home cook food.....

And watch TV......

Watch my favourite korean TV series....

The temptation of wife.....

Still find it very very nice....

Although i watch that before......

A girl can be strong without guys....

Haha..........

Then the next day,

Having breakfast with my grandparents and my uncle and aunt.............

My grandmother is nagging abt my nails.....

Cos i paint it black.....

She find it scary....

So next time i am not going to paint this colour in front her...........

Then try cooking curry.....

Long time never cook......

So almost forget how to cook le........

Luckily my aunt beside me.....

And give me instruction....

Then go out with my aunt to fetch my cousins.....

Raining heavily......

Then come back........

Chating........

Playing with my cousin.....

Online....

Then at night.......

Feeling confused and depress..............

Don want to come back Kampar...........

But have to............

Then next day.....

I become a driver....

Go to school to fetch my cousin...........

Then go Jusco....

Meet up with Hazel Jie Jie......

Now only i realized how her life had been.....

Is so stressful........

One hour they have to finish one chapter..............

So the lecturer only tell them wat is important and wat is not important.................

And their timetable is kept on changing..............

And their study hour is so long.............

From morning to evening............

I feel so luckily.......

My timetable consider quite relaxing.......

Having a relax time....

But so sad cos she is going to India soon......

Going to miss her.....

She has been someone who support during my Form 6 life.....

Although i only know her for one year....

But since then we are like best friends....

Then going to practice for Sunday service......

Back to stage.....

Scary.....

Almost three months did not touch my piano.....

So scare that i could not play like before....

And i am going to play in front of one to two thousand adult.........

And some of them are better than me...............

Really Scary..........

Luckily i still can play........

Like before....

But i know my skill has not improving......

But i lose some of my skill.....

Need time to find it back.......

But still the sweet music.....

The music that i play is still sweet and nice....

Haha...........

Then sunday,

After serving, then go see my bro play drum...........

Is like went back to my old life......

But got one difference......

When i meet my friends,

After hi, is always that phrase....

U come back ady.....

I will be smiling and saying ya...........

Ya.....

I am back to where i belong....

Be a little princess...........

Then, they got a time for Jamming......

Some learn drum....

Some play guitar....

Some play piano....

I want to learn drum....

My friends is shock......

So sad....

My bro is not around.....

His drum is fantastic.....

So no one teach me....

Next time when i go back,

I want to learn drum.....

Don say i am crazy.....

Cos is fun..........

Then we have lunch together.....

I have lunch with my bro and my godmother......

They dote me a lot.........

Having so much fun.....

My bro feed me....

Haha.....

I got feed them la.....

Playing around......

And 'sa jiao' with them....

Long time never did that ady....

At here, i dare not do that to my friends.....

I only dare to do that with my bros.....

Miss them so much.....

Have dinner with my dad....

And watch a interesting show....

Talks abt the magics biggest secret.....

So cool.......

They teach u how to perform magic......

Magic is all about lies.....

They are not real....

They are able to cheat u......

Then next day...........

Not feeling very well....

My lips is very dry....

Feeling dizzy.......

But still driving down to my grandmothers house...

During the journey....

Not dare to speed....

Drive safely....

Thanks god that my head is not dizzy during that time....

Then go fetch my cousin......

I realized i am brave.......

Compared to the time that i just got my license.....

Not scare by the car any more.....

Then have a nap......

Then attend my cousin's birthday party......

Meet my old friends....

Two years ago,

I went to Genting with my cousin....

That time she meet her friend there.....

We play archery together....

So long ago....

A bit forget ady.....

Her friend was there in the party.....

He could not believe i am older than him....

He thought that i am younger.....

My face can really cheat ppl.....

Then meet up with some friends that long time never meet.....

Have a chat....

And playing.......

So fun....

But headache.......

Then have to pack up and come back here....

Don really feel like coming back....

When i was at JB,

I am like a little princess....

At Kampar,

I have to be an adult....

Which i am learning.....

Really hard....

But i have to....

Cos i don want to be a little girl anymore....

A girl who always cry when face problem....

But be an adult who face problems bravely.....

Kampate Starry.....

Starry can do it one....

Smile............

Confused and depress.....

Something happen in my life.....

Something that i must say.....

But i don dare..........

Wat can i do???

Crying is not a way.....

But tears keep on coming down....

Wat should i do???

I really have no idea....

I don want to lose them......

And time is running out........

And i don really know wat to do..........

I really hope that i can be there with them.......

But i cannot....

Going to study has pull me away from them......

How i wish i can stop the time.....

Right now....

Staying with them is wat my hearts desire....

But every time it fails.......

My mum always send me to the school far apart with them.............

I really miss them so much.......

Every time, when i want to leave,

I will be crying....

But after crying.....

I know i will become stronger..........

I have to........

No matter what.......

Forcing myself to become stronger...........

I am in a very confused state.....

I am not the starry that ppl know.....

I don want to be weak.........

I don want to be a girl who will cry whenever she face problems.........

Why do things always different from wat i think???

Why????

Just hope that i can get better soon.....

And someone can be there to help me........

God, please help me...........

I am losing all my hopes....

And u understand me the most............

Help me..........

Starry is going to get better and well soon..........

Friends,

So sorry cos i won tell u wat happen............

But don worry..........

I will get well soon...........

Don make wild guess.....

It won work.........

I will be strong again.....

I need a place to express myself......

And at here, i can really let it out.........

I know i can smile again....

I know the problems will be solved....

I know the confused and depress me will recover....

Just need time.........

So sorry.........

Thanks.................

PTPTN....

Finally pass up my PTPTN form....

And he accept my application.........

YEAH......

Happy................

Cos i have to busy prepare the document............

Have to go back JB for the signature............

And is worth it............

But today something happen...........

Make me feel like scolding people...........

very angry at those ppl.............

No brain one.............

Study so much for wat..........

If u don have the basic manner..............

Don know how to be a human..............

Today.............

I wake up very early....

First time so early......

I wake up 5.30am.......

When i go out.....

The sky still dark..............

Then my friends and i cycle to school................

The school gate haven even open...........

We reach school ady............

And start to line up..........

But in front us, there are others ppl............

Then in front of us got one grp of ppl............

When their friends come, they just straight away cut the line and line up in front of us......

Then we also cut the line to in front lo.............

Until here still ok....

We chit chat.........

Then at 7am........

The door open....

We go into the building following the line....

Then when we go into the hall....

We still follow line....

Then they are ppl from the back moving in front....

Then we heard a person shout 'chong a.....'

Then the ppl from the back start to rush to the front............

And everybody squeeze in.............

I feel so angry.......

My friends say...

' If this kind of situation happens in the art stream, i feel is ok....

But this happen in a science stream.....'

My friends and i really feel very angry lo..............

How can this happen????

I really feel like telling them...........

Hei.............

U r at least 19 years old............

Not a little kid........

Study degree for what..........

If u don haven simple manner................

No manners.................

Don think study make u a different person..........

Don think get good results is superior than us.....

Stupid idiot..............

U won be able to survive in this cruel world............

Hate it............

Don be so selfish...............

U make the ppl come early look like a fool............

And u make urself an idiot....

A person no manners...........

A person who seems like not educated............

Is very foolish.......

Telling ppl u r a uni student but behave like someone not educated...........

Recently,

Meet with ppl so selfish and sarcastic...............

The world is sick...........

Hate it...........

Humans are complicated........

So do I................

Black nails.......

Recently, i paint my nails...........

I paint it black........

I like the colour....

But my friends find it scary............

I paint when i am preparing my test....

No mood........

Really.........

So i paint my nail.....

I like it very much........

Although a bit scary............

haha.......

Next time try a different colour.......

Trip back....

I went back JB on last Wed...............

Again...........

Haha.....................

Cos i miss my family..............

My family miss me lo........

Haha.......

Just kidding......................

I went to do my ptptn things............

I have to give my parents to sign............

So they print for me..........

And they sign for me............

And i went back and take...............

So i spend one day there actually..........

If u minus off the travelling time...............

And then,

I wen to visit my grandmother.............

I drove up there...........

And i meet a pig who don know how to drive.............

An arrogant pig................

I come to a T junction...........

I want to go to the other site...............

The car in front me want to reverse...........

So i stop for the car to reverse............

Suddenly a female pig came from the other site of the road and signelling........

Telling us that she wants to park at the parking lot behind me..............

I was so angry...........

Luckily the car in front of me stop.............

And there was no car coming............

So i faster drove away...........

After that i was scolding that pig in my car..............

I was like..........

U stupid pig........

U no eyes a..............

Cannot see la............

How am i suppose to move........

U only think of urself.........

Pig la..............

Ur grandfather punya road la..............

Arrogant...............

Stupid...............

Is an aunty driving the car............

And u can see her nose so high............

Hidung tinggi................

WAT DE................................

Then i have fun in my grandmother's house........

Playing with my cousin...........

She is so cute.............

Then i drove back.................

Don know why this place so many pig............

Pig that are stupid..........

Pig that are arrogant..........

Pig that only think of themselves..............

And most of the times is this kind of pig causing road accident.......

WAT DE....................

Ur skin colour does not make u higher than us lo...............

U stupid pig.............

Angry at this kind of system..............

Fed up with this kind of theory...............

Stupid..............

Don say something that seems so good but sort of impossible...............

Use ur brain la.............

I hate it.............

Humans are complicated........

So do i............

A scare....

This morning i have a scare....

Nearly heart attack........

Luckily my heart is still strong enough to take it........

Haha...........

If u are currently in perak,

U left a important document in Johor,

And u need it two days later,

Wat will u do?

And u don know where u put it ady....

Scary, right?

Ya, this is my situation.

I need a cert for my ptptn application.....

And it is in Johor.......

I really don know wat to do.....

Luckily there are friends around me.....

And they ask me to call back now....

And give me some idea.....

So i immediately call my mum.....

But my mum is not at home....

She goes to work ady......

She say she call my dad.......

So my dad and my sis help me find the document...

And scan it...

Then email it to me........

Just now i am so so so worried....

My friends was like...

Sure can find it one...

U got keep it.....

Then can one la......

I feel relieved a bit..........

Then received call from my sis..

Asking me where did i put...

I tell her i really don know........

A bit worried and frustrated...

So i talk very loudly........

My friends was helping me to calm down.........

I feel their support and i am very grateful to that......

Then i go back to hostel.........

On the way home, my sis found it.........

Haha.............

Really thanks god..............

Thank God...........

Thank my parents.........

Thank my friends......

Without them, i really don know wat to do.........

I realized i am a spoiled brat..........

Haha.........

Can u believe it?

I am calling myself a spoiled brat...........

Ya i am.............

In my parents protection for so long..........

Everything is i want......

But i am going to change it..........

And become stronger...........

Be a grown up.............

I will study hard to repay my parents...........

Starry is growing up here.......

Starry knows that she has a reason to be here.............

Starry going to study hard here..........

Starting today..........

Give all her best................

Kampate starry............

Starry can do it..........

Cos starry has god, family and friends........

Smile..............

Last day of lab.........

Today is the last lab practical in this sem.........

Fast, right?

My friends just start their sem not long ago........

And now i am preparing my finals ady............

Time flies so fast..........

Could not believe that.........

I am going to finish my sem 1............

So we did our practical as usual............

But this time,

I took a lot of picture...........

Some is for my lab test............

Which is next week........

We need to identify the slide......

So my friend found all the slide......

And we took picture of it.......

Then, promise them to upload to FB.

And tag all of them.........

I have the slides ady......

But i need to rearrange...........

First time take picture on the microscope.........

Then we have another lab..........

We are doing gel electrophoresis........

Cos the first group cannot finish the practical in time.......

So this time the whole class do one together........

We also took picture of the apparatus that we used..........

And we chat during the time we wait for results........

Is super funny to watch my friends.............

They are playing around.......

And i could not stop laughing............

After class,

We go take picture with the lecturer............

She is good..............

She is also my advisor............

I like her fashion.............

She does not dress like a normal lecturer...........

But very fashion...........

She is also very cute.......

Then after class......

Went back hostel.......

Cos tired............

I really don have strength anymore...........

Now is relaxing..........

And eating my dinner...........

Going to study hard for my finals and quiz........

Kampate Starry............

You can do it......

With god, nothing is impossible............

Be a strong girl here.........

Smile.............

Emo.....

Emo again.........

Can i lock myself in a place where no one could find me???

No.............

Starry is dreaming again........

Haha........

Promise my friends not to be emo again..........

But still emo.......

Currently me seems like not the real me.......

Where did the cheerful starry went????

Lost in somewhere else???

I am going to find the real me back............

I am going to find the cheerful starry back........

Today, cycling in the rain.........

Its kinda fun...........

At least it does not hurt anymore..........

But is happy............

When it rain.......

I feel like going out and play in the rain........

Let the rain wash all my sadness and emo away............

So that i may regain the happiness that i ones had.............

Changing my blog address..........

Is a way to adjust my feelings..............

Cos i don want to hurt others..............

Even though saying sorry may hurt someone..............

But this is wat i really want to say..............

Somethings are just meant to be secret............

Somethings are just meant to be lock away............

Somethings are just only for my friends........

Those who really accept me...........

Those who really love me.............

Those who understand me...............

Thanks............

Emo.............

Starry still emo...............

But starry know she got someone there.......

To support her...........

To make her stronger..............

Smile starry..............

Finding herself...............

Her real self..............................

Sleepy.............

Why am i still tired???

After my nap.........

This week has been a tired week for me.......

But this week is kinda normal...........

Not much things to rush........

I don know why...........

I always fall asleep........

And after that i feel tired........

Maybe i really slept too much..........

This is wat my friends say.....................

Haiz.............

Going to reduce her sleeping time..............

And start study lo.............

This week is ady week 11.......

In exactly one months time.........

I am going to face my finals........

Kampate starry..........

Starry can do it............

Smile................

Sick.........

I am sick.......

Again........

Don know why.............

Miss home..............

Miss my mum's cooking..........

Miss eating porridge...........

Got to take care of myself..........

Stop relying on people...........

But learn to take care of myself..............

Drink more water......

Rest..............

Enough sleep.............

Reduce sugar intake............

Eat regularly........

All this i will do............

Starry will be fine here.......

Starry will be strong........

Starry going to healthy............

Starry want to lose weight...

But in a healthy way...........

Kampate Starry.........

Smile............

Wed and thurs........

A lot of things have happen in these two days............

I am happy for everything in my life now..........

I am very thankful to my friends and parent.....

Starting from Tuesday...........

I am studying for my A n P quiz.....

Then i receive my mum's call...

That they are coming to visit me tomorrow.......

I was like har......

Tomorrow got quiz and concert.......

Then they told me they go my grandmum's house then call me....

Then i did not receive any call...........

Then i fell asleep...........

Then i receive a phone call......

From my mum......

She tell me that she is at my house.....

I am like har...........

So fast........

Then they come inside my room.....

And have a rest........

Bring things for me..........

We chat............

Then they go to KL to meet my sister........

My parents are great............

From JB to Kampar.......

They have to travel for 8 hours..........

I feel encourage...........

Cos i don want to disappointed them again......

I know my STPM results is very bad.......

I did not put in my effort in it..........

I make them disappointed.......

I will never forget that...........

To make them proud........

Then i have my quiz...........

The lecturer teach first......

But i am study..............

Then, we have quiz...................

It is critical thinking type question......

So i write everything that i can think...........

I write everything that i can related to the question........

So i write a lot.....

And my friends are like...........

Wow...............

Then, they tell me they are scare...........

I feel that i just simply write only......

Cos i really not sure wat questions want........

So write all lo............

Then i skip class to go to Ipoh.........

We have fun during the journey...........

We were laughing and chatting...........

Then we reach Ipoh Parade.....

Then we go makan.......

I love the food there.....

Nice, right?

A lot of fruits........

I cannot finish it......

Then we go to Syuen Hotel.....

For the concert..............

My friend is very smart and good..........

He got us some wrist band.....

That only for those who attend the seminar.......

They get to go in first............

This is the wrist band.............

So we get to go in first............

On the wrist band.....

There are two word.......

United + Conquer........

Is very nice.................

But we waited for 45 minutes just to get into the hall..............

And waited about 30 minutes for the concert to start...........

Then they finally started......

I like their opening........

Hillsong concert opening is always fantastics...........

I like their video...........

They make it very nice............

Although got some mistakes.......

But still nice...........

Their fast songs is very rock...........

You will feel like jumping...........

And all old song........

Don have any new song............

But i enjoy it.......

The slow songs really touch my heart.............

The slow songs feel my heart............

Give me faith, love and hope...........

I am heal through the songs........

I learn a lot in the concert...................

Then the last part......

I dislike a guy.............

That guy Is tall........

He block my view..........

Then when he jump.......

He is moving to the back..........

And the space there is very limited........

I feel like kick him..............

But i did not do it..........

He is crazy...........

And he start to dance for one song......

Like playing boxing............

And no matter how my friends hit him.......

He has no feeling..........

He make me feel uncomfortable.........

Haiz.................

Then we go makan and go back..........

During the journey back,

I am laughing non stop.......

Cos of my friends cold joke........

Then i rest....

I fall asleep without knowing it again......

haiz........

Then thurs morning.....

I go meet my friends from JB............

We have breakfast............

We chat and bring them to see my Uni.......

I know some camp coming.....

And i plan to go back to attend.......

See got holiday or not.............

We have so much fun together........

And i feel like i am back to JB.............

Then i went to my friend's house.....

In eastlake......

I live in westlake......

And from my place to eastlake is far....

This is the first time that i went there...........

Then we chat in my friends house......

Then i go back home to rest........

I am really thankful to my parents and my friends....

They are really good to me......

But seems like i always cos trouble to them...

Haha...........

I will never run away from my responsibility....

As a musician........

I really feel like regret that........

Cos i really pass everything down to friends without training them..........

I am feel really guilty.....

I am leaving JB in a time where there is lack of musician.......

Hope that lord will use more people.......

And i believe i have a purpose........

Leaving is the best choice i have.........

Haiz.........

Miss JB so much..............

These two day.....

My spirit is restored.......

My mind is strengthen....

I am encouraged..........

I feel stronger.........

In future,

There is still a lot of things to face........

I can make it..........

Smile Starry...........

Be strong...............

Kampate Starry...........

Hillsong Concert........

This a concert i been waiting for one month like tat.........

Especially when i have miss one in JB..............

Before coming to study......

I always wanted to go to another concert.............

I want to improve my music skill..............

I want to beat someone with my music skills......

But seems impossible...............

My friends' piano skills are fantastic.........

And they are almost same age as me...........

So i always wanted to beat them..........

But i know i will never get the chance..............

So, it sort of a regret.......

Cos my heart long to go...........

But i have to let go..........

Then i heard that got this concert..........

I got that feeling that i must go...........

Then i finally get to go..........

Although it is not the real team that play for the album.......

But is really fantastic........

I love their music.............

Singing songs....

I have so much fun there.........

Enjoy myself in the music..........

Some song touch me............

Am i living in a mask?

Am i the real me that once was in JB?

Am i affected by the environment?

Am i adjusting myself just to fit in?

Am i going away from god?

Am i just running away?

Am i just pretending?

Am i??????????

Yes, i am..........

I am running away from someone who love me so much.......

I am running away from someone who understands me the most............

I am solving all my problems by myself.................

I always think that i am alone here.............

I am running away from my responsibility........

I always think of myself only...............

After the concert............

I need to do something to my life.......

Change it from worst to good................

Let God control my whole life..........

I am not alone here..................

But i have god.........

I have my friends..............

I am willing to take up my responsibility.........

To be a musician again......

In JB............

Haha............

My heart and my soul..........

I give u control.........

Let justice and praise........

Become my embrace............

To love u from inside out.............

Everlasting............

Your light will shine when all else fade..............

Never ending...............

Your glory goes beyond all fame............
And the cry of my heart................
Is to bring you praise................
From the inside out.................
Lord my soul cries out...................

I really hope i can do it..............

I am not ashamed to be a Christian.................

I will love god with all my heart........

Keep his word in my heart........

And be an obedient child......................

Sometimes i am never meant to just fit in........

I am not going to think of herself only......

But care for others.........

I am going to live a life from inside out.......

With god........

I won let the world influence me........

But i will shine like stars............

Starry, Kampate.............

Starry can do it............

Starry miss her church friends so much.............

Starry want to be herself again............

Blog.......

Recently..........

I love to blog.............

Cos this is the place where i can speak out loud.............

I can really be myself...........

In this is virtual world..........

In starry.....................

Sorry........

My mood is swing again........

Feel like finding a place to hide again................

So i am going to change my blog address again...............

And this time....

I will completely hide my identity........

And use only starry this name.............

Recently........

I am very emo..............

Really emo.................

I can be smiling at this moment.....

And then be sad abt something...............

So sorry if i hurt someone...........

I am truly sorry........

And i am not intentionally want to hurt you...............

Going to hide herself......

And let the hurt heal.......

And return back to the starry that everyone once know.........

SMILE, STARRY.........

爱上一个人比忘记一个人容易..............

This is my FB status...........

Wondering why...

Cos is true............

I try so hard to forget a person...............

I want to forget him.......

Really..........

But every time fail.................

And yet falling in love is so so easy.............

During that period of time,

Ya.....

I kinda like someone else...........

I am a playgirl, right?

Haha........

I admit it...............

Only some of my close friends knows........

And i don know wat to do..............

I have to work with him..............

I feel scare playing the piano with him..............

I cannot deny it...........

He is fantastic.............

I know he is in other country now............

And now i can treat him as normal friends.................

Haha....................

But the first guy......

I really cannot forget about him..................

Now i kinda like another guy............

I am very playful........

I try so hard to prevent myself.........

But yet fall into it............

So, i am going to kill it before it started to grow.................

Luckily the three of them don know that i have blog..........

So i dare to write here........

And they are not with me.........

The two of them still in JB.............

They are nice guys...........

And i am not regret that i meet them.......

But i want to be their friends.............

I don want to tell them..........

Cos i don want them to fell stress........

But i wish them to be happy.............

Now i am still single..........

But i am waiting my heart to die...........

And i am happy here.......

With all my new friends............

And my heart started to die...........

Going to completely stop loving him.............

Kampate o........

Starry...............

Just like my Hze Jie Jie say...........

I am going to meet a better person............

There are still a lot of guys in this world...........

But for now...........

I still prefer single............

When times comes........

Maybe i will go into a relationship with someone...........

But not for now.............

Starry is playful..........

But she is happy for who she is.........

Maybe sometimes a bit emo.......

But will get better soon............

KAMPATE, STARRY.............

Love is confusing,

Relationship maybe deceiving,

Friends is better,

Family is the best..............

Basketball.........

Since don know when,

Started to like basketball..........

But my height can never been able to play very well..

Cos i am short........

So those who know i am playing will be a shock......

I miss the time playing with them..........

That time is really a free time for us.......

Don know wat to do in church.......

So a group always hang around in Basketball court.......

In my church there are one.......

So at there girls usually listen to songs....

Whereas boys will be playing........

Cos we are so close........

I start to join them...............

Of course they will bully me.....

But they will still let me...........

So fun that time.....

But i like see them play.....

Is been like a habit.......

Every time free in church....

There are two place i can think of.....

And one of it is basketball court........

Is been so long i never play with them.........

Cos involved in performance and preparation of Christmas........

Finally finish all things......

Then i am here........

Study.............

I miss them a lot...........

But at here......

I got go and play....

Once only.....

With my friends..........

And i kena bully.............

We got 5 people.....

And we divide into 2 groups....

One group 2 and another one 3..........

And we start..........

I join in the group of 3 with a couple.......

Then the other 2 are a captain and the tallest one........

So actually our group is in disadvantage......

But we just play for fun.............

I can actually score for my groups....

So happy.......

But at here.....

They won let me one....

I have to fight for it.............

Especially my friend who is a captain.......

He read my blog and know abt it....

And he ask me.......

He always bully me........

At first, he let me shoot.....

Then start to distract me......

Make me miss........

When his ball out, i was so happy............

After that,

Every time i want to shoot....

He will take away the ball...

haiz....

So i cannot shoot......

And he will be laughing.....

I was so angry.........

I actually dare to snatch ball from him........

He is the third person that i dare to do it...........

The first two is my brother......

Cos we are so close, so i dare to do it..........

But i only know him for two months...........

Very weird, right??

I also don know why...........

So they actually win....

But we have so much fun........

He keep on asking me to have a match with him.....

One on One.....

I keep on rejecting....

Cos i know for sure i will lose one......

Haha.

Then he ask others....

We play for one hour...

Then have breakfast.

Then have to continue to do things...........

Just now my brother promise me...

That he will play basketball with me when i go back to JB.......

And when he is in the church......

So happy..........

Is been long time never meet him and play with him..........

He is a brother which i love so much.......

We also know each other for so long...............

Miss u all.............

And cannot wait until that time..........

Conclusion, Starry is playful......

Haha........

Choices........

This week i have been in a not feeling well state.......

But i don want to tell others........

Don want to make them worry...........

For my shining friends and my darling,

Don worry......

Xiao mei will take care of herself de...........

Xiao mei miss u all so much........

Xiao mei will guai guai drink more water de...................

I miss JB so much...........

How i wish to go back..........

Cos at there i feel like i have so much things that i haven done........

And i make my friends so busy................

I am so sorry......................

How i wish to go back there.............

But i still thanks God for putting me here..............

I really thanks God for everything i have here........

The friends i have here.......

The experience here..........

The study life here..............

I enjoy it.......................

At here i have to learn to grow up........

I cannot be a little kid anymore...........

But grow up as a young adult.........

I cannot say that i don like people say that i am still like a kid......

But a part of me really feels like growing up.....

At least in a special function like wearing formal,

I want to be an adult.....

It is my choice to be here.......

And i am really thankful..........

But i will always miss JB............

Jia you o...........

Friends In JB.............

My best sisters and darling.................

I will be here working hard too...........

Love u so much.................

KAMPATE STARRY.................