Change blog address....

Sorry, i change my blog address........
Cos don want too many ppl know wat am i writing.....
Espeacially in my EMO state........
So ppl, wait for me to step out of it.........
Hope i can step out of it soon............
Kampate starry.......................

Wat if my heart stop beating..........

If my heart stop beating,
wat will i become...
Who will be there to cry for me........
who will be there to stay with me until the day i buried..........

EMO right?
Don know why..........
This question suddenly come into my mind.........
Just like my fb status.......
There are a lot of why in my head........
I don know where to find answer.........
Still confusing........
Everyday.......
Evrytime......

Can i be a invicible girl?
So no one can see me???
Haiz, this is just my dream...........
But wat if my heart stop beating.................

Who will i be?
where i will be?

Starry going to be stronger............

Currently.....

Starry still confuse about her life........
Everything..........

FUTURE + FRIENDS+ FAMILY.................................

but starry can do this with all my friends and family help.........
Starry is currently emo.......
Don know why........
But EMO......

Don know how to handle this situation...........
Don know how to be a grow up girl..........
Don know how to manage my time..........
Don know how to handles kids...........
Don know......
Don know........
Don know.........

Life is like this, isn't it.........
This is my life.........
I should take everything into consideration............
I don want to hurt others........
I don want to make others cry.........
But i want everyone to be happy..........

STARRY WILL GET STRONGER.......

I HATE MY LIFE..............

I HATE MY LIFE...........
I HATE THE PERSON NOW.............
WHY EVERYONE TRYING TO CONFUSE ME...............
I HATE WHO I AM NOW....................
I HATE IT..............

I don know why..........
Sudden i hate the starry now...............
I hate the old me............
I hate myself..........
I don know why........
I don like who i am now...........
I feel like shouting.........
I feel like going back to the past and make some changes............
I feel regret everyday............
In my life.............
I hate the time..........
I want to slow it down................
I hate myself wasting the time..............

In the end, is all a dream.............
I cannot accomplish anything...........
I just a ignorance kid...........

Let the dream fate.........
Let me have a brand new start.............
Starry need some rest and adjustment.........
Starry don want to be a kid anymore..............
Starry wantto grow up...........................

Let starry be starry.........
Don be someone starry not suppose to be...............

STARRY HATE THE CURRENT STARRY....................
STARRY WANT TO BREAKTHROUGH AND CHANGE...........

Cbc wmm camp....

Just come back from camp....
Feeling uncomfortable there....
A few reason.....

First, a bit not feeling well....
My stomach has been giving me problem since sunday........
Cos i has no appetite to eat....
I bought my lunch...
But i did not eat.....
Since morning, i cannot ate anything until 6 something.....
The only meal i ate is during my dinner....
Steamboat.......
At first i really cannot eat...
Finally i got appetite to eat.....
Cos my brother cook for me....
Thanks, Brother........

Second, i am not comfortable with my group....
All so young.....
Most of them still study primary....
I am the oldest there....
Really cannot communicate....
My best friends and my brother all in different group.....
Therefore feeling a bit lonely....
Thanks to my brother who make me happy........

Third, i have a fight with my sister....
I ask her to help....
She don want....
Then, i ask her something....
She say i got attitude problem.......
Then i got so so mad....
Until i cannot control it.....
I think my anger accumulate from sunday until tuesday....
Really cannot control it......
Bad mood........
Really thanks to friends and my brother who talk to me....
Finally i feel better....
Problem solve......

In this camp although i does not feel so happy......
But i still learn something.......
My brother teach me drum....
I get to learn drum.....
Fantastic....

Getting closer with my brother is the happiest thing in the camp.....
Thanks, Brother.............

Confusing........

Results come out.....
Then don know wat to choose......
Cos not that good.......

Going to change my dream and ambition......
It helps me to face this reality.........
I am no longer dreaming about my future......
But now i am growing up to face the reality......
It can be cruel.......
But with friends and family....
I can do it.........

Starry is returning to her usual self......
Starry don want to cry anymore........
But face the problem and challenge............

Time to grow up and face another difficulty.......
level up herself......
Kampate.............

Night with family..........

Yesterday did something special and extraordinary...........
My dad, my mum, me and my sister.........
Go yum tea during midnight.........

My dad suddenly suggest that we go drink tea at 1 something........
Special le......
Four of us..........

I could not believe it but we really did it........

Nice to have my family with me.........

Life.........

Life is fragile.........
You can see someone healthy this moments.....
The next moment you receive bad news........

Death is something a person cannot avoid.......
It will come when the time comes.....
You cannot escape and say no to it.....
You won know when it will come.......

So, Don say you still young and have a lot of time....
But cherish every minute that you have......
Cherish people around you........
Cos you won know when you will lose them.....

But people are like this........
They won know and regret until they lose something.......
Me too........
I need to constantly tell myself that.......

Why this topic come to my mind......
Cos on Sat, i receive good news and bad news........
A child is born and an adult has leave this world............
A life is given and a life is taken..........
I feel happy and sad........
Happy for the child....
Sad for the adult.......
This is life..........