The Village where i grew up.....

Since young,
I grew up in a village....
When i was young,
I hate to go there....
Cos a lot of mosquito...
And don know why...
The mosquito love to bite me.....
Rather than my sis....
But yet at there....
I experience a different childhood time compare to my other friends....

In the morning,
We will watch cartoons....
Then have our lunch...
Then we will go buy ice-cream...
We just tell my mum...
Then we go ady.....
Cos is quite small...
And my mum have been living there for long time....
So is ok...

Then afternoon,
We will study....
Then evening time is the time we have fun the most....
We will go to my mum's friends' house there....
Pick blossom flower's seed....
And we never plant it....
Then we will chase the geese...
Seriously...
In books we always read that goose will chase people when they are angry...
But we will chase the geese...
Then chase chicken and ducks.....
Then go to playground....
Then only come back home....

Playing with flowers....
See the chicken that my grandfather rear one come back...
And fly on to the small tree to sleep....
Ride bicycle.....
Go around the village....

I seen snakes before...
And lizards.....
And snake skin....
Real one....

We also swim in the sea there...
Cos the village is near to the sea....
But i have seen a snake in the sea....
So we cannot go there swim ady.....

There is beach where you can go dig crabs...
And if there is ship come to the port,
You can find shellfish on it....
Green in colour......
Can go and pick it...
We get to buy fresh seafood....

And in front of my grandfather's house...
There are big mango tree....
When the season is here,
Someone will climb up and shack the tree...
We will be picking up the mangoes that falls.....

You maybe wondering why i suddenly remember all that....
Cos during this sem break...
When i went back.....
Could not found it ady...
No more geese, chicken and ducks...
My mum's friends has pass away....
No more mangoes tree.......
All this will only be in my memories..........
Is sweet.....
Yet sad.....
Cos i always cried when i go back to study.....
Haha.....

Going back to do a blood test.....
The result is not exactly like wat i think....
But have to take care of my health.....

Have to step out of it....
I will always remember the fun i had...
But i am happy that the village is developing...
To become more advance.....

Kampate starry..
Smile.......

Holidays.....

Had a wonderful relaxing holidays....
Learning new things during the holidays....
Kinda fun....
When new sem going to start,
Totally don feel like coming back to study....
But wat to do....
Have to continue study....

This time get to meet my Form 6 friends....
One of them come back from Sarawak....
We go sing K...
Again....
Haha.....
Then shopping....
Chating...

Then preparing for Christmas.......
This time get to try out new things....
Act as clown...
I have never been a clown...
This is the first time...
Working with people who are not very close to me.....

Then on Christmas eve,
I go and eat Korean food with my best friends.........
Haha....
During my form 6 time,
I always go out with them to eat Korean food.....
So sort of like remembering the past.....

I am someone who live in the past....
Living in sweet memories only....
The hurting and sad memories is lock away...
In a Pendora Box........
But i know,
I should not live in the past anymore.....
I should step out of it....
And face the future bravely.....
Right now,
I want to live for the Future...
Make plans for the Future.....
Thinking of the Future........
Kampate......

Then having a fun time during Christmas....
First time...
Without involving in anything.....
Cos the past few year,
I have been involved in Christmas....
No matter there is major exam or not....
First time.....

This holidays....
Meet up with them....
One come back from Australia to enjoy holidays.....
One just finish his STPM.....
They really surprised me......
The first one surprised me by saying Merry Christmas to me....
Is like the first time...
We have never really talk to each other except for the ministry things....
So is like i don expect him would talk to me if i did not start the conversation...
Haha......
The second one send an sms to me....
I have not seen him even though i go back....
Cos of busyness....
And he always went back early....
So when i finally free, he ady go back....
He wants to return my notes to me....
Then we just chat a while....
Haha......

I think that i can just let go............
But is hard.....
Yet i can do it....
My world now is filled with friendship and kinship....
The love of friends and family....
No more relationship....
Is time to focus on studies first.....

Teaching my sis is a headache...
Cos her basic is not very good....
So kinda hard....
And very hard to call her to study....
She will be playing her com or eating....
Every time like this.....
Ask her to study, she will sure go and find things to eat....
Even though she is full....
Haiz.....
Then cos of her i cannot go my grandparents house......
But yet have a fun time together la....

Then finally can go my grandparents house....
Talking with my cute little cousin....
She is the smallest....
Yet talkative....
She loves ice-cream....
So sometimes i bought her one....
Then this years she starts go to kindergarten.....
So cute.....
When she come back,
She called me first then only call my grandmother...
It is a tradition for us to call our elders....
My grandmother was pretending to complain....
Funny.....
I love them very much......

Then this holidays, i did a project....
Is called new village project....
This is one of the soft skills project...
And is free....
So the four of us did.....
Then we go around to take pictures and write reports....

This time come back...
Learn new things....
Gain new experience....
Exploring new things....
Going to update more....

Starry will work harder this sem.....
Kampate.....

无言。。。。

最近的我。。。
对很多事情无言。。。
真的无言。。。
看着错误发生。。。
看着人的个性。。。
看着人的态度。。。
看着事情的发生。。。
看着人们的无奈。。。
有时候。。。
真的很伤感。。。
却无言。。。

我是谁？？
有这个资格说吗？？
即使说了, 他们会听吗？？
haiz....
无言。。。

有时候，
我可不可以不要听？
我可不可以不要懂？
我可不可以不要知道？
我听了又如何？
我知道了又如何？
我有办法又如何？
真得好累。。。
真得无言。。。。

最近，我的口都禅变成了无言。。。
对于很多事。。。
不想理又放心不下。。。
理了又不知道该怎么做。。。
知道了又不一定可以行。。。
所以选者了安静。。。
静静的。。。
什么也不想管。。。
或许会更好。。。。

Patiently waiting for things to happen...
Patiently waiting for things to over...
Patiently waiting for those who are involved in it to find a way to solve it....
Patiently waiting....
Since i don know wat to do....
Is better to really don care....
Haha...

I really need a time to really stay away from all this....
Kampate...
I can do it...
Don want to get involved in it...
Just be happy....
Smile, Starry.......

01-01-2011

Today....
I have to tell others that i am 21 years old...
Although my appearance look like a 15 years old kid...
I think my friends would agree with me....
I still remember a nick name that my friends give me...
千年妖怪...
Why?
Cos i does not age....
After so long time ady...
I still look younger than my real age...
Haiz....
Have to grow up ady...

Today is the dedication of the new building in my church....
Actually i have a lot of complains about it.....
But....
Haiz....
无言....
Seriously....
And then i am complaining about something today...
Haha....

Is time to move ady...
Move from the street of murmuring and complaining...
To the street of thanksgiving....
Be thankful for whatever u have...
That is really important...
Instead of having a bad face and angry all the time,
Why don we choose to live happily...
Haha....

But sometimes...
You know you should do it...
But you cannot....
Is hard to change....
Sometimes really feel like...
Lock myself in my own world....
Don want to step out of it....
Cos outside is full of hurt and lies....
Is that true?
No one knows....
Haha.....

Sadness and sorrow will pass...
Joy will come after that...
The sun will rise after the sun set....
This is all true....
The only thing to do is to wait patiently...

My holiday consider quite ok...
Relax....
Enjoy time with friends and families...
Happy...
Bought new clothes and shoes....
Prepare for Chinese New Year...

There are more to write about...
So today until here...
Starry will be stronger...
And more mature...
Kampate.....