Guys.....................

Currently, i am in a situation where i don like guys......................
Certain guys are good, and i cannot deny that....
But some are really bad...................
I just don know why they treats girls like that.................
I just hate that kind of guys................

I saw my friends suffer from broke up.........
It makes me really sad...............
Why?????

Guys, don u all know tat........................
When u broke off, most of the time is the girl got hurt..............
Rarely a guy feel sad for the relationship but most of the times is a girl.............
I am really sad...................
To see my friends like tat........
It makes me want to beat that guy............................

Currently, i don want to enter into any relationship...............
Just want to be myself................
And i have been like a fool for long time ady....................
Really need to step out of it ady...............
No more heart broken........................
No more heart pain..........................
No more.......................
But just a cheerful starry..........................

I really hope that guys can be more thoughtful for girls....................
Girls are not as strong as guys.....................
Girls are weaker than they look....................
Just don hurt them.................................

Starry is no longer a fool.................
But a cheerful girl..................

Monday Blues................

Why do bad things always happen on Monday????
Today is kind of bad day for me.............

First things is Nutrition Test...........
I know how to do...
But i scare i got a negative mark....
This teacher is weird....
Wrong mean no mark lo....
Why do u need to minus mark for it?????????
Haiz..........
During my maths class, I was like half asleep, half study my nutrition note and half listen to the lecturer...........
She teach so slow....
And no confidence...........
I really hate maths class....
It is no because i hate that subject............
But it just too slow..........
For me.................
Haiz...........................................................................................................

Second, my bicycle lock spoil.......................
And i don know wat to do................
I call my friend....................
She came and help me......................
Help me to find a big scissor so tat i can cut the lock................
But in the end, i call the bicycle shop.........................
An aunty come and help me.................
She say that the way i lock my bicycle is wrong..............
So, the lock spoil.............
Haiz................................................................................................................
I need to buy a new one...............
Now only i know how to lock and open my bicycle..........................

Third, I fell down from my bicycle.................
Cos the bicycle bang something.............
Haiz...........
Luckily no injury....................................
Haha.....
Stupid, right????????????

I just don know why................
Why do things always happen on Monday????????????
Since i was still in JB.............
It is not as worst as here..............
Maybe cos i am alone here.........................
Haiz..........................
U can read my blog................
Everytime about monday..............................

Just hope that i can continue to study here...............
Love god......................
Help people................
Study.....................

Kampate, starry.................
You can do it..................

Money....

Recently spend too much.....
But i don know where spend....
Thats the main problem....
If i know where i spend....
That i can control....
Going crazy....
Haha.....

I decided to keep my account....
Use my knowledge on account....
To keep check...
This is just to let me know where i have use my money....
And finally save it...

This week....

Its time to update myself....
First my gastric problem came back....
On Sunday.....
Cos of irregular meal.....
I always eat later than the time.....
So pain....
It happens at night.....
At 12 night.....
When i want to sleep...............
And tomorrow is a crazy day..............
And i learn my lesson....
Really need to eat regularly......
I know my gastric sometimes make me cannot stand......
And i was so scare that....
Tomorrow is a crazy day.....
So on monday i did something that my friends and family will not believe....
I actually drink milk.....
And is two packet....
Can u imagine????
I hate milk so much until i feel like vomit......
Will willingly drink milk just for my health......
This is an improvement....

Second, monday is a crazy day.....
I got class from 8 am to 7 pm.............
Between that only have two hours break only.....
Is really crazy.....
And u cannot skip....
Cos got practical....
My practical teacher is very fierce.....
Scary......
So....
Study lo..............

Third, i forget about my test......
And i sort of like study last minute.....
So of course i did not do well......
Cos i have to remember.....
Sad..............
But luckily it only like 5%....
So i still got next time.....
Such a blur me,.....
And i won do that again......
I will work hard.......
And score next time....
I won repeat my mistake again....
I won let my beloved family disappointed again....
Especially my mum.....
I know she feel sad when i get my STPM.....
I will work hard for her....
I am always the child she can be proud of......

Lately, my life is busy....
Reports, tutorial, assignment, funfair.....
Test is coming.............
But with god strength, i can do it..............
And i need to restore my relationship with god....
I won let the fire in me that was restore during teenz camp to burn out....
But let it keep on continue.....

How i miss JB.....
And my friends....
My family.....
And all who love me....

Today i just realize i miss music....
My life become abnormal....
Cos there is no more music in my life......
There is no more piano....
There is no more serving....
Is kinda make my hand itchy.......
Feel like playing piano.....
I will be back to JB....
But i will get stronger in Kampar.....
Kampate........

I'M JUST A KID....

After listen to this song,
Realize that ya....
i am just a kid..........
It suits me.....

In UTAR,
my friends was telling me,
hei, u look like a kid....
U does not look like a 20 years old girl....
And i give those who are younger than me a shock.......
I was cute....
Ya...........
JUST LIKE A KID.....

Actually sometimes i like it....
Sometimes i don.....
Cos i can always look younger than my real age....
I will never grow old........
But i am wondering.............
When will i grow up.........
To be a true adult.....
I really want to grow up someday....
Stop behaving like a kid........
And be a young adult....

But i still thank god for making me like that....
He create me....
And there is only one me....
I am very special........
Unique..........
Cute...........
Childish...........
Innocent.........
Special..........
Smart...........
Lazy............
Naive.........

There will always be one starry....
Starry is proud for who she is...........
Kampate...........
I am the best................

Regrets.....

Like my facebook status....
I have a lot of regrets currently....
In my life......
I promise someone i will write it out....
But friends don worry.....
If i can write it out.....
This means that i can overcome it....

First one, is still my STPM......
I really did not do my very best.....
That the result i deserve.....
This is my greatest regrets.....
And i cannot go into the uni that i want.....
Is kind of regrets.....
But i know god put me here in kampar for a reason.....
I learn a lot here.....
I am getting stronger here.....
Although i cannot go back in time.........
But i will never forget the time we spend in Form 6.......
I will never forget the support i gain for everyone....
My da jie, da ge, hazel jie jie, lian, pipi, chi and jolene....
It is the most wonderful time.....
I am going to miss u all.....

Second is teenz camp.....
I don mind not going....
But i really want to involve in the concert.....
Is my last time to play piano with my friends.....
But i have to lose it to someone i hate so much....
I dislike him a lot....
Is kind of not fair.....
I will never forget the things that he say to me.....
But i really had to let it go.....
God teach me a lesson through this.....
Opportunity is very important.....
I must appreciate every opportunity i have.....
I must be humble....
I need rest....
I am getting tired of my life in church....
Now is the time to be a new christian.....
Continue to get strength from god.....

This is the regrets that i have currently....
It seems like only two......
But every regrets there carry a few small regrets.....
I hope i can learn new things from the past....
Abandon my past....
Look into the future.....

Starry is stronger everyday....
Every situation that she meet,
Groom her and build her into a better person....
Kampate......
Starry can do it.....
Cos she has her real family, her school family, her church family, animal gang, and all her friends support......
She is thankful for everythng that they done in her life......

My tomato mummy's wedding....

It is my cell group leader's wedding......
So i rush back from kampar to JB.....
She is a very good leader.......

As a cell member, we need to help her to usher the guest......
The colour of the dress is off-white.....
Is very hard to find.....
Finally i bought a white colour dress.....
Is the nearest to it.....
This is the dress.......
But i cannot wear like that.....
Sure kena scolded.....
So i add a scarf and a jacket......
My favourite jacket......




Why i put the picture????
Cos my darling wants to see it.....

It is a very nice wedding.....
And i am happy to see her got married......
Wish them have a blessed marriage.....
And give birth to a cute baby soon......

After that....

Yesterday night, i cried....
Cos of the last post.....
I really miss JB.....
I realize why i can smile here.....
Cos i am counting down....
Counting Down to go back JB.....

When someone block me from going back,
Then i cried.....
But i know myself.....
Everytime i cried....
I get stronger.....

I know at here is good for me....
But my heart still long to go back......

JB how i miss u....
Now i feel better....
I know my mum was worried....
But yesterday i really feel my heart pain.....
I realize i should not make them worry so much.....
Mum and dad.....
Don worry about me.....
I am fine here.....

Thanks Hazel.....
I know u worry too.....
But i will be fine.....

Yesterday god use that song....
I can do all things through christ.....
But this song my heart pain....
Cos i long to play in a concert.....
But i need to study.....
I had to give up the chance....
Now i realize how much i miss my piano......
When i go back JB,
I will play my piano until crazy.....
A promise i made i with you, piano.....

I gave up most of my things to come here study....
I will do my best....
And get a good result....
I don want to let anyone down again.....
But be a stronger girl.....

Starry is strong.....
Cos she has God with her.....
She can do all things through christ.....
Kampate.....

My mum.....

Just now kena nagging from my mum.....
I hate her when she nag....
Cos of the taxi driver case.....
She don want me to take taxi....
But she don know how inconvenient in Kampar....
She thought is JB....
Everywhere bus....
Can get to one place easily....
No, in kampar.....
I hate the transport....
Go everywhere also not easy....
I can ride my bicycle there.....
But who help me to take care it.....
The school bus service leave here at about 12 something.....
I got tutorial until 1 pm.....
I cannot say i want to go back early....
The only thing is taxi.....
Then she nag.....
She say that i better don come back....
I better stay here for 3 years....
I hate her....
I want to come back.....
The case won happen everywhere....
Just cos it happen in kl....
Does not mean it happen here.....
This is a small village.....
Everyone is very helpful....
Not like KL....
Big city........
Where everyone go their own way....
Wat can i do....
Ya....
Better don come back.....
No need to hear your nagging.....
No need to hear your scolding.....

I hate it..................

I still feel angry about it.....
Why?????
You don miss me???
Why you don want me to come back????
In JB, is where i grow up.....
In this far away place.....
Do u think i can face it???
The food is different....
Very hard to go from one place to another....
When i am in trouble,
Don know wat to do....
I miss JB.....
Why u don let me to come back????

I miss ur cooking....
I miss my car....
I miss my bed....
I miss my doll....
I miss everything in JB....
Why u don want to let me go back???

worst day.....

Today is the worst day of my life....
First, i woke up late...
A bit la....
Late for lecture a bit....

Then i go and print something for practical later....
I used my 50 ringgit to buy something....
The others 40 ringgit i drop it....
Sad....
This is the time where i want to save up money...
And i drop my money....
Sad.....
But wat can i do???
I cannot find it any more....
Conclusion still sad....

Second, i realise my shoe spoil.....
During the class....
The glu not stick ady....
Oh well....
Time to change a new pair of shoe...
But is quite hard....
My mum say i got too much shoe....
More than 10 pairs...
If i want to buy shoe, she will say no....
Sad..........

Third, my bicycle....
I just bought my bicycle yesterday....
Today, the tire got a hole....
And i cannot ride it...
And is going to rain....
Luckily, someone help me....
He bring me to the nearest bicycle shop....
And i am very thankful to him....
But i don know his name....
Haha....

Conclusion, today is a sad day....
But i thank god for the angels around me....
When i face problems....'
There will be someone telling me how to do....
They will tell me, you can do like this....
I really thank god....
In this week, i say a lot of thanks and sorry....
In this new place, i am growing up....
When i am back to jb,
I will be a grown up....
A beautiful butterfly.....

Yesterday's accident....

Is kinda sad....
Cos a girl die like that....
I hear from my aunt....
KL is very bad...
The petrol station had kena robbed many times...
So they don open....
And cos they cannot see the accident....
So they scare people come and rob....

This only tell one thing....
KL is bad....
The situation here is not very good...
The crime rate is increasing....
Sometimes i wonder wat are the government doing....
They really don know the situation in KL???
Or they just ignore it....

I cannot write too clearly....
Later i kena caught by police....
I really don know wat r they thinking....

Is money so important???
Until you abandon everything in you.....
Is fame so important???
Is power so important???

I cannot say it is not important....
But if it will hurt other people....
I would rather abandon it....
I think others will say that i cannot accomplish any great things......
I don think so....
Be someone who can help others is a great things....
Rather than hate by people in the future.....

I am just a girl....
Normal and ordinary....
I realize every people have their weakness too...
Me too...
I am so easily influences by people...
Maybe i need to change....

Living in this world does not only depend on money, fame and power....
There is still more to this life....
Hope i can find the answer to it....

A poor girl....

Today at cheras had an accident.....
A girl was stucked in the car....
And fire started to burn....
A helpful person went and borrow fire extinguisher....
But because of some stupid BHP rules....
They won let....
In the end, the girl die....

Can you imagine?
Wat can be more precious or expensive then life???
I really feel very sad for the girl...
And very angry for the BHP....

I want to ask the BHP people,
If the girl is ur own daughter.
will you save her???
Will you break the rule and save her???
I think the answer will be yes...
Then why u cannot break the rule just to save that girl....
Rule is something dead....
But people is alive....
People can think....
You are stupid....
It is your fault that the girl die.....
I think you are also a murderer....
A cruel person....
A person without compassion....

I feel very sad for the girl...
Hope her family can be strong again....
This incident will remind me again.....
Have compassion to others...
This world is not a good place....
Everywhere you see people crying....
I want to be someone who give them help....
Lord, i need you...
I need your help....
Break my heart for wat breaks yours.....

This world is terrible....
I need to be myself....
Don let the world affect me....

Love............

My friend break up with her bf....
It makes me kind of sad......
Cos they are still young.....
A lot of uncertain in their life.....
I know is hard....
But be strong............
Not too strong..........
Cos it make us worry...........

To both of them,
i know is hard.....
Both of you receive hurt....
But let time heal your wounds....
Let God touch your heart again........
I f it is Gods will,
Both of you will be together again....
Now is not the right time for both of you,
As you both have to study , having important exam, and make new friends....
I know you will not listen to wat ever we say....
But as a friend and a sister.....
I think that friendship suits you all....
For this stage of life....
Not need to find a bf first, but let be friends first.............

I don know will you all see this.....
But lets be their support....
I know they need us.....
I know i cannot do it....
Cos i am not in jb....
But animal gang can....
Will you help me to do this???
I know you will.....

Love is confussing,
Relationship can be deceiving,
Friendship is better....
Family is the best.........

Interesting Article....

I read a interesting article....
In Facebook....
It talks about how a boyfriend should treat his girlfriend.....
After reading it, i was like if there is someone talk to me like that....
I am the happiest girl in the world....
But these must be from his heart....

To someone,
I talk with you last sunday...
I know you are shocked....
Sorry cos i don have time to talk to you so much....
And don let my results scare you....
I play a lot last year...
So this result i deserve it....
Don let it overstrain you....
I know you can do better than me....
Keep it up.....
I really wish to play piano with you....
Cos you are fantastic........
Lets be friends forever............
I hope you can remember me as your friends............

I know you won read this post....
Cos you don have my blog....
You don know i have it...........
I know my heart still got feelings.......
But lets be friends forever............
This year is a very very important year for you.......
I want to wish you all the best and kampate in it......
Get a better result than me..........
I will be happy for you........

For those who know, just let it be a secret...
Don spread around....
I don want to disturb him...
I want my heart to die....
Stop have feelings for him....
I know is hard....
This is the fifth year ady.......
Is really time to let go.........
He will always be my best friend........
A friend who motivate me to stike my best and be a cool pianist.......
I have to admit....
He is better........
I only his 10 percent...
Or maybe less than that.............

Goodbye my love....
And welcome my friendship.........