很多事情，
我想说，
却说不出口。。。
找不到勇气，
不想说，
说了又有什么用，
说了会听吗？？

很多事情发生，
让我真的很无言。。。。
说不出的气愤。。。
说不出的心痛。。。。
说不出的感慨。。。
说不出的无奈。。。
说不出的压力。。
说不出。。。。

明白一点，
自己肩上的重担增加了。。。
要考虑， 要顾虑的东西。。。
好多好多。。。

我只是一个普通的人类。。。
我只是一个普通的女孩。。。
不想去烦这么多东西。。。。
只想愉快的过生活。。。。

我太舒服了。。
才发生这么多让我措手不及的事情。。。
我只能忍着， 假装坚强一点。。。
一点就好。。。
只要能再坚强一点就好了。。。。

雨后就会有天晴。。。
不管有怎么大的暴风雨在面前，
坚强一点就好了。。。。
:)
我只希望我能做到。。。。

First post in 2013... 

Let me start with usual lyric upload ba... 

Today heard a song...

I find the lyrics is so cool... 

穿着我买给你的衣服

喷着我买给你的香水

现在你应该跟她见面还笑得很开心吧

她真的有那么好吗 以至于你抛下我离开我

我到底要做到多好 你才满意

无论怎么试着将你抹去 可我们毕竟也一起度过那么多日子

虽然过去时间因为委屈总是流泪

会让你看到完全不同的我

会让你看到变得更加漂亮的我

不再因为傻瓜样的爱情而跟离开的你哭泣

跟更帅气的男生见面 一定会让你看到比你更幸福的我

没有你也不会难过 不会倒下 boy you gotta be aware

换个清新的发型 精心化妆打扮

穿上高跟鞋和短裙 全都回头看着我

即使偶然和你相见 我也会对你笑得很耀眼

将受到惊吓的你抛在脑后走掉

会让你看到完全不同的我

会让你看到变得更加漂亮的我

不再因为傻瓜样的爱情而跟离开的你哭泣

跟更帅气的男生见面 一定会让你看到比你更幸福的我

没有你也不会难过 不会倒下 boy you gotta be aware

丢掉你给我的戒指 撕掉你写的信

没有留恋 不会后悔地忘了你将你忘记 将你抹去

会让你看到完全不同的我

会让你看到变得更加漂亮的我

不再因为傻瓜样的爱情而跟离开的你哭泣

跟更帅气的男生见面 一定会让你看到比你更幸福的我

没有你也不会难过 不会倒下 boy you gotta be aware

Find the lyrics super cool... 

Going to throw away all the feelings i have for you... 

And lead a brand new life.... 

Haha... 

Thinking of becoming more and more pretty...

Just don know how... 

Learn how to make up??

Wear a nicer shirt or dress??? 

Dress up like a Tomboy?? 

Wear high heels???

I don know.... 

Thinking to dress differently for CNY....

Transform myself into a guy like or Tomboy like..

But is hard...

Cos i got a consider girly face...

No matter how short i cut my hair,

No matter i wear a cap, 

No matter how cool i wear, 

People will still find it weird...

Especially my sis...

She will definitely say it does not suit me... 

This time CNY...

thinking of wearing a shirt... 

It is special as it is the first shirt that i bought in guys department... 

Will be super funny... 

But i like the quality of the shirt... 

A lot of things have change...

And is a brand new me... 

Lets do something special this year.. 

Haha.....

甩掉黑眼圈， 甩掉爱哭的眼睛，我要打扮地漂漂亮亮过新年。。。。  

sad...
Bicycle kena stolen by some stupid brainless people....
Hate it when they don know how to think and just steal the others thing....
They just don know how people feel....
When your things go missing,
You will feel sad and angry....

Today i just saw my bicycle at 8pm...
And it is lost at 11pm...
So fast...
I fell so sad...
It has been with me for 2 year plus...
I always cycle it to school...
It is the best transportation in here....

As i move into another place which is further but cheaper...
I did not use my bicycle...
Cos too far to cycle to uni...
And is the same as walking to uni...
I would use the time to pray and talk to god...
So i decided to walk to uni...
Is been a habit to look at my bicycle...
Thinking to repair it...
Now no need to repair le..
It is gone..
Forever...

I felt so sad...
Is been there for me when i need it the most...
I wish to curse the thief....
But thinking...
Better not...
Really fell like scolding them in all bad words...
But i cannot think of any bad words right now...
Fell like chopping off their hands....
So that they won steal anymore...

I thanks god for my sis and my mom...
For their comfort....
They very scare when i cry..
But i always cry when things happen....

Just let me cry in this so called doom day..
Which will never happen...
And let me grow stronger......

Happy Birthday to me...
Happy Birthday to me...
Happy Birthday to me...
Happy Birthday to me....

December first post,
Is about my birthday...
Happy Birthday...
Always get so excited before this day...
And always wanted this day to reach as early as possible...
Happy....
:)

Still got a lot of things to write..
But want to sleep le...
Goodnight... :)

Long time never blog le....
Last post also say the same thing...
haha...

Is been a long journey...
And the journey is ending....
I am going to graduate le...
Is like so fast...
Going to take graduation photo...
And say goodbye to kampar....

But first,
Need to settle my FYP...
Hate it so much...
If you ever heard that anything bad happen to me,
Remember the culprit will be FYP...
Haha...
Is it hard??
Yes, it is hard and challenging....
Everyday i am hoping to get a good result...
Yet SDS page everyday bully me...
It don let me get good results...
There is result but yet not good...
This is the problem...
Have to find out wat happen....

Just come back from hometown...
So feel very happy...
You just could not imagine how happy i am....
Seems like home is the best medicine...
When i reach back,
My illness cured ady...
No more vomiting...
You maybe wondering wat happen...

Cos before i went back home,
Almost every morning,
I will vomit before eat or drink anything...
I vomit out the gastric juice in my stomach before eat and drink...
It usually happen when i am brushing my teeth...
And it continue for few days...
Thanks god that when i reach back home, no more ady...
But at hometown, i feel dizzy when i wake up...
Maybe not enough blood ba...
Just don scare myself then can le...

Just hope that i can quickly settle everything and graduate...
Haha...
But i think i will miss the life here...
Cos here got so much freedom...
I miss the freedom in Jb where i got transport to go anywhere...
I will  miss the freedom here where i can do watever i want...
Not that i cannot do it in JB...
Can but my dad won feel happy and i will kena scolded...

Continue to work hard...
Test is coming on Monday...
Jia you..
I know i can...
:)

好久没写部落格了。。。
每天都好忙哦。。。
有的时间，
都用来解压了。。。
可是压力却源源不断的来。。。
我压力到了一个可怕的程度。。。
我每听到我的妈妈的声音。。。
我就会哭。。。
每当在冲凉，
总会鼓励自己。。。
可是，
过后有哭了。。。
虽然，
告诉自己现在荷尔蒙在失调着。。。
却发觉自己太情绪化了。。。
情绪像过山车一样。。。
上上下下。。。
分不清何时会上何时会下。。。
好恐怖。。。
自己真的太压力了。。。
抗压程度不够。。。

想快快完成。。。
然后毕业。。。
想。。。
压力。。。
是会让人成长的动力。。。
也会让人发疯。。。
希望在这三个月可以学习到如何抗压。。。
不管压力几大，
都可以应付。。。
加油， 思恩。。。
我知道我可以。。。
:)

槟城，
好好玩。。。
好多好吃的。。。
改次再找机会去。。。
如果可以找个槟城的男朋友就好。。。
哈哈。。

告诉自己， 我做得到。。。
告诉自己， 我可以应付的。。。
告诉自己， 我会完成的。。。
告诉自己， 我就快要毕业了。。。
努力读书， 考好成绩。。。
:)

Long time never write post ady....
Cos of FYP....
Thinking of everyday write something about it...
But time is needed to adjust my habit according to it...
Everyday wake up at 7 something just to go to uni..
Is quite hard for me...
During exam period,
I usually sleep at this time...
Night is the best time for me to work...

I cannot stay overnight le..
Everyday need like 8 hours sleep...
If i stay overnight today,
Tomorrow i will sleep for 12 hours..
A bit not like me le...

My habit is keep on changing...
Just to fit into FYP life...
Yet, FYP is so much harder than wat i think....
Working within the time frame is just so hard...
Not to mention that you need to fight for machine and stuff....
Plus no OT...
Until now, i finally understand why others hate FYP so much.....

When face problem, have to troubleshoot ourselves...
A lot of studies are needed for it....
English level have to improve...
Need to know a lot of things.....
It just so hard...

Maybe is not that hard,
But is i myself lazy...
Every time when reach back home,
Feel like sleeping the whole day...
It is harder than intern...
Intern just go to work then come back and sleep...
FYP is go to work and come back and study....
Haiz...

Life gets harder,
Is time for me to grow stronger...
In FYP,
I know i will be learning a lot of things...
And get rid of my bad habit...
And telling myself...
When people scold u,
Is actually for ur own good...
Cos if the person does not care about u,
He or she won scold...

Planing and working hard is what i have been lacking in my life...
Hope that through FYP i will learn it..
Although is in a hard way,
But is for my own good...

Thank god for my supervisor and her master student...
Thanks for all their teaching and scolding...
Is making me stronger...
Is making me more and more mature....

Time to sleep le..
Goodnight...