Long time never blog le....
Last post also say the same thing...
haha...

Is been a long journey...
And the journey is ending....
I am going to graduate le...
Is like so fast...
Going to take graduation photo...
And say goodbye to kampar....

But first,
Need to settle my FYP...
Hate it so much...
If you ever heard that anything bad happen to me,
Remember the culprit will be FYP...
Haha...
Is it hard??
Yes, it is hard and challenging....
Everyday i am hoping to get a good result...
Yet SDS page everyday bully me...
It don let me get good results...
There is result but yet not good...
This is the problem...
Have to find out wat happen....

Just come back from hometown...
So feel very happy...
You just could not imagine how happy i am....
Seems like home is the best medicine...
When i reach back,
My illness cured ady...
No more vomiting...
You maybe wondering wat happen...

Cos before i went back home,
Almost every morning,
I will vomit before eat or drink anything...
I vomit out the gastric juice in my stomach before eat and drink...
It usually happen when i am brushing my teeth...
And it continue for few days...
Thanks god that when i reach back home, no more ady...
But at hometown, i feel dizzy when i wake up...
Maybe not enough blood ba...
Just don scare myself then can le...

Just hope that i can quickly settle everything and graduate...
Haha...
But i think i will miss the life here...
Cos here got so much freedom...
I miss the freedom in Jb where i got transport to go anywhere...
I will  miss the freedom here where i can do watever i want...
Not that i cannot do it in JB...
Can but my dad won feel happy and i will kena scolded...

Continue to work hard...
Test is coming on Monday...
Jia you..
I know i can...
:)

好久没写部落格了。。。
每天都好忙哦。。。
有的时间，
都用来解压了。。。
可是压力却源源不断的来。。。
我压力到了一个可怕的程度。。。
我每听到我的妈妈的声音。。。
我就会哭。。。
每当在冲凉，
总会鼓励自己。。。
可是，
过后有哭了。。。
虽然，
告诉自己现在荷尔蒙在失调着。。。
却发觉自己太情绪化了。。。
情绪像过山车一样。。。
上上下下。。。
分不清何时会上何时会下。。。
好恐怖。。。
自己真的太压力了。。。
抗压程度不够。。。

想快快完成。。。
然后毕业。。。
想。。。
压力。。。
是会让人成长的动力。。。
也会让人发疯。。。
希望在这三个月可以学习到如何抗压。。。
不管压力几大，
都可以应付。。。
加油， 思恩。。。
我知道我可以。。。
:)

槟城，
好好玩。。。
好多好吃的。。。
改次再找机会去。。。
如果可以找个槟城的男朋友就好。。。
哈哈。。

告诉自己， 我做得到。。。
告诉自己， 我可以应付的。。。
告诉自己， 我会完成的。。。
告诉自己， 我就快要毕业了。。。
努力读书， 考好成绩。。。
:)

Long time never write post ady....
Cos of FYP....
Thinking of everyday write something about it...
But time is needed to adjust my habit according to it...
Everyday wake up at 7 something just to go to uni..
Is quite hard for me...
During exam period,
I usually sleep at this time...
Night is the best time for me to work...

I cannot stay overnight le..
Everyday need like 8 hours sleep...
If i stay overnight today,
Tomorrow i will sleep for 12 hours..
A bit not like me le...

My habit is keep on changing...
Just to fit into FYP life...
Yet, FYP is so much harder than wat i think....
Working within the time frame is just so hard...
Not to mention that you need to fight for machine and stuff....
Plus no OT...
Until now, i finally understand why others hate FYP so much.....

When face problem, have to troubleshoot ourselves...
A lot of studies are needed for it....
English level have to improve...
Need to know a lot of things.....
It just so hard...

Maybe is not that hard,
But is i myself lazy...
Every time when reach back home,
Feel like sleeping the whole day...
It is harder than intern...
Intern just go to work then come back and sleep...
FYP is go to work and come back and study....
Haiz...

Life gets harder,
Is time for me to grow stronger...
In FYP,
I know i will be learning a lot of things...
And get rid of my bad habit...
And telling myself...
When people scold u,
Is actually for ur own good...
Cos if the person does not care about u,
He or she won scold...

Planing and working hard is what i have been lacking in my life...
Hope that through FYP i will learn it..
Although is in a hard way,
But is for my own good...

Thank god for my supervisor and her master student...
Thanks for all their teaching and scolding...
Is making me stronger...
Is making me more and more mature....

Time to sleep le..
Goodnight...

Life is just so fragile....
People can appear to be healthy in front of you yet you lose him or her in just a split of second....
Losing another friend again...
In this month, this is the second time that i lose a friend...
Is sad...
But knowing that they are going to a better place, Isn't it good for them???
Yet i am sad cos i am not able to see them again...
Both of them are someone that has help me before...
They offer their help to me...
And serving people with a smile...
From them, I learn...
When i heard about the bad news,
I am sad...
Feel like crying...
Yet there is no tears coming out...
Just don know why....

Goodbye my friends....
We may be asking a lot of why....
But i want to learn to accept it without knowing the reason...
Believing in god who prepare a better place for them...
They are still too young to be back to heaven...
But yet this might be better for them as they have no more sorrows and pain with them....

Goodbye is the only thing i can say..
Although there is nothing left for me to do...
I always remember you in my heart...
Appreciate what you have done in my life...
And this help me grow...
I know i am going to see you again in heaven...
In a place beautifully made....
There will no more sadness and pain and suffering...
And there will be joy....
Goodbye...

No matter how much i hate to say goodbye,
It will always happen...
As this is life...
There will never be a person in life that he or she has never say goodbye...
One day, we will all say goodbye...
Goodbye to the world and goodbye to our dearest family and friends...
Until that day,
Just continue to live our life and appreciate the fact that you are still alive....
:)

Sorry that i love you...
Sorry that i need you....
Sorry that i fall in love with you...

Today,
Saying goodbye with a friend...
To me, he is like a brother...
That would really know me...
So is sad to say goodbye...
Cos knowing the facts that it would be hard for me to meet him again...
But still,
This is life...

I am sorry for making that request onto you...
Just hope you have a better life...
Wish to meet you again...
Goodbye, my friend.....

超想唱歌。。。

想尽情的唱歌。。。

不管人家。。。

可是不能啊。。

想躲在一个房间。。。

然后唱。。。

等改次自己有一件房子的时候。。。

每个人都有想过。。。

自己的房子。。。

未来的房子会是怎样。。。

真想有个音乐室。。。

能让我尽情的唱歌，听音乐。。。。

哈哈。。。

说再见，

是最难的事。。。

因为，

你知道你不会再见到他了。。。。

有些伤感，

但是，这是人生必经的路程。。。。

学着， 过了， 就会成长。。。。

期待成长， 

变成漂亮又有气质的公主。。。。

有气质因该有一点难。。。

哈哈。。。 

Losing control for a small matters.... 

To people, it may be a small matter...

But to me, 

I may be seeing it as big matter...

Cos it is something from my mum...

A mum who love me so much.....

So the story starts,

I am watching movie...

And my friend did not tell me that he is playing my phone....

So in the middle of the movie, 

I realize that my phone is with my friend...

I am like, 'o...'

Then, 

Another friend play with it...

Then i go there and saw the battery level, and find it is in yellow colour...

This means that it is below 50%...

I am still ok...

It make me lose control is when the battery level is less than 15%....

I heard a sound indicating that it is below 15% and must be charged le...

Then, i saw my friend still playing with it....

I lose control....

Why?

First, Is a present from my mum...

Although is i ask for it...

I never expect that my mum would pay for it...

I am ready to pay for it... 

Yet my mum did not say a thing and buy it for me.....

Second, it need a very long time to charge....

Need like 4 hours....

And when i saw the battery graph, 

I feel angry...

Cos it is a straight line graph that goes down....

I myself haven use it and yet you all play until like no battery...

Third, 

You did not inform me and yet it ady tell you no more battery and yet u still playing without asking me...

I am angry...

And i lose control..

I cannot do anything but just angry, cry and scream...

Inside my room...

And i call my sis and someone that understand me...

My sis and my godbrother,

They are people that understand me the most...

I can tell them everything...

And they understand...

In my position, How would i feel...

And give me the advice that i needed the most.....

I am glad to have them in my life...... 

Story ended without any quarrel...

As i clam down, 

There is just back to normal...

You may be wondering why there is no quarrel....

Cos Quarrel is something that would hurt the relationship...

I find it that way...

Three things that would break a relationship, 

Which are quarrel, lose temper and scolding people...

Right until now, 

I realize this three....

Without quarrel, 

We may not understand what others people thing...

But yet if there is quarrel, 

It will affect the relationship..

You spend so much time to build a relationship and yet you break it just so easily...

If you really appreciate this relationship, 

You won break it so easily...

I learn it but in a hard way....

Cos i am a flower full of thorns...

Easily hurting other people....

Wondering what my character would be like..

And today i get an answer that i would never expect it be...

I find it true in some ways.....

I am just so timid to believe in wat i know....

I am just to scare to believe in the decision i made...

I just don want to believe...

So, I know wat i want but yet this is the time where i am lost...

Just not sure whether this is it....

I just never expect that my friend would give me this answer...

But i believe in one things...

As i continue to grow up, 

God is molding my character...

Waiting for it to be better.....

Smile princess..

And be a strong princess.... 

:)